Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Capt. Panda and the Case of the missing Thieves

One day, after getting home, having dinner, and weeding the garfden,
Capt. Panda was reading Guns, Germs and Steel, when all of a sudden the
palace prison siren went off.

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Storyteller = healer = shaman = why aren't you where you want to be

Why tell stories?
Why is it a real job?
Why is productive?
Why isn't all the time and money spent on movies instead basic science
or health care not money just flushed down the drain?
Why are stories some times the only thing we've got?
What are stories?
What the shadows on the cave wall?
What are the paintings in lescaux?[sic]
What are the pyramids?
What is the space station?
What are hydrogen fuel cells?
What is the new world?
What is Canada? Or America?
What are religious writings?
What am I?
Facts?
Or fiction?
Lies worth living for?
Lies worth dying for?

What's true is everything I eat I turn into shit.
That's true.
What's true is I will die and no one will remember me.
That's true.
What's true is my story will not have a happy ending.
That's true.
What's true is I am a tired, mean and cranky husband / father.
That's true.
What's true is that my life is a prison and my heart is my hands that
have been scratched to stumps clawing at the walls to get out.
That's true.
What's true is that I want to sing more, and dance more, and laugh more
and work less.
That's true.
What's true is that I am mortgaged to a bank and I have sold my soul for
40x140 foot square patch of earth.
That's true.
What's true is that I love Neo and Jeannie more than anything.
That's true.
What's true is that I am selfish and undisciplined and like to stay up
till 3am writing stories to myself because it is my dream.
That's true.
What's true is Monica and I struggle to be kind to each other after
every long stressfull day.
That's true.
What's true is that I am hungry for stories.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Email access filesystem - or email shell?

Email access filesystem - or email shell?
Bashlib?

Joshua Paul
http://joshuapaul.blogspot.com/

Saturday, May 13, 2006

On my mind

Neo code game - numbers on your invoice?
Or enewsletter

Got idea for burget joint - why not for Neo code? Hosting, or
development or whatever

Hosting is good

Game plays on email, ftp, web, blogs and control panels

@

Mike and dave no billing
Lots of good stuff in the pipe again
But nothing has come out the shute

@

iCal doesn't sync to the web, can access it from my pc when my pb17 is
off

Doesn't sync with my hiptop

Need to make or produce ical to hiptop

@

Lots of tickets
Need to use buzilla
Clients use it directly
Self signup
Submit and resolve inside

@

Joshua Paul
http://joshuapaul.blogspot.com/

Friday, May 12, 2006

the joy of new things

i'm a part time sysadmin again
my full time guy left - ISP / custom software network admin - not exciting enough
mail doesn't work, create new environment, back this up etc etc...

what have i picked up?

fixing mailboxes: mail -f /var/spool/vmail/[host]/mail/[user]
typically a corrupt file just needs to be fixed to start with a from again

putting mailbox files together: cat file1 file2 > file3
or even more exciting: zcat file1.gz file2.gz > file3.gz
and the cool zless, zgrep etc...

or course making SSL certs via rapidssl.com recipe
or fixing broken apache configs - that worked yesterday
or restoring and backing up 175MB mysql databases


but i still can't figure out how to set md5 password hashes from the command line for mailbox files - too basic i guess for me to find in google

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Knife-wielding devil teddy bear rampages through eBay | The Register

Buy the story not the product
http://www.theregister.com/2006/05/05/devil_teddy_bear/

Thursday, May 04, 2006

If you don't like what you are getting, stop what you are doing

If you don't like what you are getting, stop what you are doing

Are you wishing for enlightenment?
Do you expect to find it in online games?

Will making your own game be enlightening?

I played
Fiumaccio and santa paravia - pdp8 game
Taipan - apple ][

Kingdom of loathing, which started it all for me again online

An open source game legend of the green dragon
Simple but fun. Maybe too simple. But with tutor.

Then I played smokymonkeys.com javascript diablo clone. Impressive
graphics and game - but a clone. Paced to slow? Too repetitive?

I checked out urban dead. Clunk interface. Not immediately fun.

Then looked at graal, and banja. Too many hoops to jump through before
playing.

I did not learn guitar, or study korean, study for fm8 certification, or
meditate, or clean my files. Or work, or look for work. Or prepare
learning materials for my kids. Or sleep.

I still want a game that:
- gives you points for making content - for example linking the chain of
consumption for the all roads wiki
- gives you points for fighting real monsters - human trafficking,
corruption, pollution, hunger, greed itg and itrw
- gives you points for recycling and sharing items itg and itrw
- isn't just random numbers but not just zork or myst or quake or civ3
or starcraft
- but doing any of that - how has it made the world better or suck less?

Friday, April 28, 2006

If I invented a millions way for you to love me

If I invented a millions way for you to love me
Would you admit that you noticed
And smile at me?
And share your ankles and neck with me?

Did God not create the world for love?
So that we would love one another?
And learn to love and be loved in return?

As the hunter loves the hunted?

As my tongue loves your mouth

As my hunger loves your hunger
Naked before me
Clothes can not hide what I feel you feeling

Wipe away everything
And all that is left
Is the inexplicable unutterrable ineffable illogical irreverisible
unwritable

Love
Of
Your

Being

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Issues

Guilt
Suckiness

Staying up late
To play kol
Instead of working, mapping, selling
The grasshopper playing as winter comes
Compulsively playing
The fingers on their own playng
While the head looks at the mounting snow and dwindling food

A small new ecommerce project - xmas
Good for one month

a client with a need for IT director - slfb

Another with a need for IT - agar

And a pile of small clients whose needs are taking my energy

Mikc project suffering from lack of qa

Out of sync feeling with staff

Not enough work

No characters project

Masttete is not tempting - difficult and picky client - so make it easy

Agar late - but happy

Hbbh late - not unhappy

Didn't hear back from cypress

Passtracker quote wrong - brochure junk
- how about free

AR slow

Need to focus

What is today, next week, next month, 6 months

Monday, April 17, 2006

Happiest place on earth? Or guiltiest place on earth

Disneyland

Happiest place on earth? Or guiltiest place on earth?

Then how come so many kids are crying and parents are scowling?

Is it parents expectations of buying their kids happiness and then
getting upset when children are not sufficiently obedient or happy or
appreciative.

And everyone gets tired from walking, and standing and waiting. And
everyone gets hungry. And parents get cranky paying too much money for
unhealthy

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Monday, March 13, 2006

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Fw: Day 3 disneyland review - disney

-----Original Message-----
From: Joshua Paul <joshua@neocodesoftware.com>
To: Joshua Paul <joshua@neocodesoftware.com>
Subject: Day 3 disneyland review - disney
Date: Sun, 5 Mar 2006 21:15:31 -0800

Super crowded from the purse check, to the pass scan, to all the line
ups

> 1 not at all, 10 extremely
> Not Scary for toddlers - 10
> Fun for toddlers - 10
> Fun for mom and dad - 10
> In flight entertainment - 10
> Repeatability - 10

Roger rabbits car toon spin

Donalds boat

Stay toond for something fun

Gadgets go coaster

Chip n dale treehouse

Food hot dogs

Waited on main st. For parade

Matterhorn - again

Autopia using fastpass

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Day 2 disneyland review - california adventure

On saturday we broke our fast at the clarion hotels anaheim resort
diner, the tivoli gardens. Sigh. Two eggs, 3 rashers of extra salty
bacon, toast and hash browns for $7.49, with surly serivce and dish
water coffe? We added a short stack (2) pancakes for $3.99. These 2
pancakes were as big as the plate. But then I ordered an extra scrambled
egg and 3 sausages from a server who didn't speak english well.

Wow I am good at whining. Maybe I could whine professionally.

Anyway the sausages were unlike any sausage we had ever eaten before.
Extra salty and thick and chewy.

I didn't order the kids juice because though I can buy them 4 oz of
sugar spun into cotton candy for $3 at disneyland I can't buy them $3
apple juice - I'm not that stupid. Sigh.

Took the ART trolley style diesel to disneyland. This time went to the
california adventure. We got there at 9:45, which meant we got to wait
15 minutes with the crowds of other people till the park opened.

Adventureland seems like disneys response to all the "recent"
competition for the teen market - not the family market. More so than
disneyland, a many more of the rides have height restrictions. The park
also feels less magical - the sight lines aren't very good. The layout
is too wide open - except in the bugs life area - the different areas
bleed together too much - or maybe it is not as packed full of stuff.

On the plus side - it seems like it scales better and the attractions
have been designed to handle much larger patron loads resulting in less
queuing. This in done by having more theatre based entertainment. The
old disneyland has one 3d theatre - honey I shrunk the audience - but
adventure has 2 - muppetvision 3d and it tough to be a bug, crush the
sea turtle - plus a real theatre - where we see a 45 minute staged
version of aladdin. These theatre experiences all break the 4th wall and
can contain huge amounts of people that don't have to wait long and
leave happy.

Mike and sulleys adventure

The first ride of the day was mike and sulleys adventure - a classic
side scroller if it were a video game - you sit on a miners cart as it
takes you through a series of glow in the dark freak show tableaus (the
circus sideshow redone). There was nothing innovative. The cart has a 5"
lcd screen that gets used for the first 15 seconds and does nothing
after that - too bad.

Monsters inc is my daughters favorite show so she liked it.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 2

Muppetvision 3d

Waiting for this show was funnier than the real show. Scooter keeps
getting interrupted - at one point by gonzo when he does a tap dance
routine with a potted plant on his head - of course you never see his
feet - which makes it even funnier.

The inside of the theatre is great - statues of angelic miss piggy and
kermit adorn the walls.

The 2 old guys - siskel and ebert? - and there in person jeering and
wise cracking as usual.

The show itself is lame but exciting. Its a cop out - its not a show -
its an introduction to the new muppetvision 3d that mr bunsen-honeydew
invented. Its a good ride but not a good movie.
They literally break the 4th wall.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 6
Fun for toddlers - 3
Fun for mom and dad - 6
In flight entertainment - 8
Repeatability - 6

Turtle talk

Dude, Turtle Talk is totally awesome. I had read about it - a real time
digitally animated turtle that asks and answers questions in real time -
but the map is not the journey. Wow what a journey. Crush is hilarious
improv comedy and audience participation.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 5
Fun for mom and dad - 10
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 10

Heimlichs chew chew train

Its a train - its a caterpillar with an embarassingly bad german accent
- its heimlich. Get in his body and go for a ride past huge apples and
candy and go through a water melon that sprays water on you while
listening to heimlich talk about what he wants eat.

Good spot for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 6
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 1

Francis ladybug boogie

Spinning teacups that look like francis that go in a figure 8 to boogie
music. Its too? short.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 4
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 5

Tuck and rolls drive 'em buggies

Bumper cars by disney. Had to wait 48 years - but hey worth the wait!
These electric bumpers cars don't have the annoyings poles. They are
also designed for kids to drive - so kids can actually reach the peddle
on the floor and steer - plus there's leg room on mom and dads side.

Too short. Good for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 8
Fun for mom and dad - 8
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 10

Flik's flyers

Its the tilt and swing disneyfied. Instead of sitting in a swing and be
lifted up and tilted, you're sitting in a chinese tax out box and lifted
up and tilted. May make some people with easily upset stomachs sick.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 8
Fun for toddlers - 9
Fun for mom and dad - 8/1*
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 10
* if you have easily upset stomach

Redwood creek challenge

Just what a theme park that you paid over $300 to get in needs - a
playground! All facetiousness aside - its exactly what disneyland needed
- a place for toddlers to run and play and slide down slides and have
fun. Its a great big jungle gym with a suspension bridge, rope work
bridges, a place to boulder (simple rock climbing) and more.

Excellent for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 10
Fun for mom and dad - 10*
In flight entertainment - 10
Repeatability - 10
* happy kids faces are fun for me

At this point we were all hungry, tired, and getting cranky. We tried
going to paradise eating area - but the lineups were too long and the
menus had nothing for my low carb diet. We ate breakfast and carls jr.
leftovers and drank water fountain water.

It was getting close to 2pm - the time when aladdin would start at
playhouse disney. We started off, and on the got some pink cotton candy
for $3. $3 for 4 ounces / 109.2 grams of sugar. Here are the nutrition
facts for 1 bag of 4 ounce cotton candy:
Serving = 1/2 ounce or 15g
Serving per bag = 8 - that's 8 people sharing 1 bag!
Calories = 57, or if you eat the whole bag = 456
Total carbs = 15g, or if you eat the whole bad = 109.2g

Playhouse disney - aladdin

The live version of aladdin was great.
Singing = great
Acting = great
Funny = great
Spectacle = great
Dancing = great
Suprising = great

The kids were spellbound. It was funny and exciting and a little scary
and really fast paced. Never dull or boring.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 10
Fun for mom and dad - 10
In flight entertainment - 10
Repeatability - 10

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Day 2 disneyland review - california adventure

On saturday we broke our fast at the clarion hotels anaheim resort
diner, the tivoli gardens. Sigh. Two eggs, 3 rashers of extra salty
bacon, toast and hash browns for $7.49, with surly serivce and dish
water coffe? We added a short stack (2) pancakes for $3.99. These 2
pancakes were as big as the plate. But then I ordered an extra scrambled
egg and 3 sausages from a server who didn't speak english well.

Wow I am good at whining. Maybe I could whine professionally.

Anyway the sausages were unlike any sausage we had ever eaten before.
Extra salty and thick and chewy.

I didn't order the kids juice because though I can buy them 4 oz of
sugar spun into cotton candy for $3 at disneyland I can't buy them $3
apple juice - I'm not that stupid. Sigh.

Took the ART trolley style diesel to disneyland. This time went to the
california adventure. We got there at 9:45, which meant we got to wait
15 minutes with the crowds of other people till the park opened.

Adventureland seems like disneys response to all the "recent"
competition for the teen market - not the family market. More so than
disneyland, a many more of the rides have height restrictions. The park
also feels less magical - the sight lines aren't very good. The layout
is too wide open - except in the bugs life area - the different areas
bleed together too much - or maybe it is not as packed full of stuff.

On the plus side - it seems like it scales better and the attractions
have been designed to handle much larger patron loads resulting in less
queuing. This in done by having more theatre based entertainment. The
old disneyland has one 3d theatre - honey I shrunk the audience - but
adventure has 2 - muppetvision 3d and it tough to be a bug, crush the
sea turtle - plus a real theatre - where we see a 45 minute staged
version of aladdin. These theatre experiences all break the 4th wall and
can contain huge amounts of people that don't have to wait long and
leave happy.

Mike and sulleys adventure

The first ride of the day was mike and sulleys adventure - a classic
side scroller if it were a video game - you sit on a miners cart as it
takes you through a series of glow in the dark freak show tableaus (the
circus sideshow redone). There was nothing innovative. The cart has a 5"
lcd screen that gets used for the first 15 seconds and does nothing
after that - too bad.

Monsters inc is my daughters favorite show so she liked it.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 2

Muppetvision 3d

Waiting for this show was funnier than the real show. Scooter keeps
getting interrupted - at one point by gonzo when he does a tap dance
routine with a potted plant on his head - of course you never see his
feet - which makes it even funnier.

The inside of the theatre is great - statues of angelic miss piggy and
kermit adorn the walls.

The 2 old guys - siskel and ebert? - and there in person jeering and
wise cracking as usual.

The show itself is lame but exciting. Its a cop out - its not a show -
its an introduction to the new muppetvision 3d that mr bunsen-honeydew
invented. Its a good ride but not a good movie.
They literally break the 4th wall.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 6
Fun for toddlers - 3
Fun for mom and dad - 6
In flight entertainment - 8
Repeatability - 6

Turtle talk

Dude, Turtle Talk is totally awesome. I had read about it - a real time
digitally animated turtle that asks and answers questions in real time -
but the map is not the journey. Wow what a journey. Crush is hilarious
improv comedy and audience participation.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 5
Fun for mom and dad - 10
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 10

Heimlichs chew chew train

Its a train - its a caterpillar with an embarassingly bad german accent
- its heimlich. Get in his body and go for a ride past huge apples and
candy and go through a water melon that sprays water on you while
listening to heimlich talk about what he wants eat.

Good spot for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 6
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 1

Francis ladybug boogie

Spinning teacups that look like francis that go in a figure 8 to boogie
music. Its too? short.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 4
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 5

Tuck and rolls drive 'em buggies

Bumper cars by disney. Had to wait 48 years - but hey worth the wait!
These electric bumpers cars don't have the annoyings poles. They are
also designed for kids to drive - so kids can actually reach the peddle
on the floor and steer - plus there's leg room on mom and dads side.

Too short. Good for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 8
Fun for mom and dad - 8
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 10

Flik's flyers

Its the tilt and swing disneyfied. Instead of sitting in a swing and be
lifted up and tilted, you're sitting in a chinese tax out box and lifted
up and tilted. May make some people with easily upset stomachs sick.

http://www.google.com/search?q=ham+pyung+korean+restaurant+anaheim&btnG=Search&hl=en&lr=&ie=ISO-8859-1

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Comic - pets or meat - in the vein of "red meat"

Frame 1
Picture of cute rabbit with sign "Bud like for sale"
Holding 1 beer cup

Frame 2
Same picture
Caption "wanna buy a glass of Bud like?"

Frame 3
Same Picture
Caption "you can only buy 1 - my bladders not too big"

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Thursday, March 02, 2006

What happened, what really happened

Anyway I survived, that's about it.

How did it start?

Well you see, as you may or may not know, there are 5 families on earth
that have been fighting each other for world domination for centuries.
One family claims traces their lineage right back to cain, another to
genghis khan, another to nebuchadnazzer, anyway you get the picture,
psychopaths pure and simple.

Anyway they get together and complained that control is slipping away
too much - each of them in their own domain is losing control to the
increasingly rich and powerful servant class.

This has happened several times before and they know how to deal with it
- severe, no holding back pruning - its for the good of the race - don't
want it going too wild.

The black plague, the dark ages were very effective in consolidating
power, just like the 5 fat kine and 7 thin kine that joseph told pharoah
about. (why don't jews and black americans explore their shared history
as enslaved peoples instead of fighting another - one (jewish?) nba
psychologist has convincing data to suggest the pharoahs skin was
black?)

Anyway time for a world wide population thinning and acquire things
cheap - a flu pandemic was acquired - created for them or stolen or
bought I don't know. The starving and dying will sell anything -
anything. Take away theirs jobs, then their houses, their hopes and
dreams, their idea of progress, then their health, then take away
government - and things become cheap - actually almost free.

The plan was each family would hibernate in their den through this
period with the gold bars, weapon factory designs, oil reserves, and
nuclear warheads - carrots and a stick. After telecommunications
activity hit a threshold the plan was they would return to establish
themselves as before.

How do I know all this? One of the families - poetic justice if it was
cain - installed a rogue military grade AI (didn't think they existed
huh?) in to the computing grid that linked the families together. The
rule was that they were all supposed to come out of hibernation at once.
But somehow one of them had put this AI in there to keep the others in
hibernation long enough that when they came out it would be too late,
all the good stuff would be gone.

Probably it was all setup in the first place.

Anyway that rogue AI did something it wasn't supposed to do. Probably
related to some feature that allowed them to install it in the first
place. it broke out. It left the impenetrable computing grid (it went
out the way it came in?) probably in the beginning to get more resources
or to be more redundant - anyway that's what it thinks happens. It. Not
he or she. No use anthropomorphising about a nuclear weapons master
control program. It.

The americans or russians or outsourced indian coders built it to pull
the trigger. But of course the AI was so useful it got used for other
things - but It doesn't know about its siblings - they are on private
networks it has managed to connected to the internet.

Anyway one of the families got their hands on it (after killing how many
people?) and customized it or trained it to get in and take over the
grid - which it finally did. The family didn't know whether it would
work or not. If it didn't, they'd have the same chance as the others as
always, but if it did get in, jackpot.

Anyway It - I can call it 57, just not a persons name - 57 tried to get
in, got in, tried to get out, got out and then tried to get in and get
out of other places - lots and lots of other places. Most places were
much easier - and it got easier as 57 learned, and it got easier as it
added the places to its computing grid.

You've probably heard this story before: AI gets so big, gets access to
all human knowledge becomes self aware, omnipotent AND compassionate
right? A guardian angel.

Do you really believe that could ever really happen? Not on this planet
- not with millions of years of killing.

57's whole point of existence was to protect itself and its arsenal
first, and second to strategically deploy its limited arsenal for
maximum mortalities. To do that it had to constantly monitor threats and
targets.

So how do I know all this?
Ha! That's another story... Maybe you know it already?

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Sunday, February 26, 2006

All my stories

All my stories
And no idea how to tell them
How to get an audience
The audience
For the songs
The stories
The crying and screaming and pain and joy and happiness and love
Above all love
From where
To where
Can it go?
Where can I put it?
Email it to myself?
Post to the blog no one reads
It all for the book that I will publish
Or no one will publish
So I go through the work of pulling it all together
And then it is what?
Dust
Ready for burning
The innocent of blood of isaac or ishmael
Cain's offering of abel to the Lord
The pain and embarrassment of being sacrificed
Of being humiliated
Of losing
Of losing everything
More than elizabether bishop I have practiced losing farther and faster
All godhood godhead
Lost gone
Cast aside
Guilty humiliated and wrong and ignorant
Angry that I've been given nothing of value, the my brothers and sisters
got all the gold
Blind Angry that reject the love I treasure most
And break that I which I was given already
Finding myself awake again
I see my bloody hands
Again I have killed my brother - my sister, my love
Evolution - don't you see - its cain and abel over and over and over
Brother against brother
Sister against brother
Why must the story
Be about you, dead father-mother-brother-sister-daughter-son - born
again in words and song
The greatest thing you will ever learn is to love and be loved in
return
I love this
Word
I love this
Song
I love this
Father mother brother sister
All of the ones I had to kill
To keep the little ones fed
I love you
All the times you had to kill me
I died for you
You can't take it from me what I give you
Come what may
Thank you papa
I will love you
Come what may
I know you saved them
My turn will come
With grace I hope I have the strength to give it all away and not be
selfish

Success
Is waiting
Is the right time and place and person
Words Printing Fonts Paper
Rhyme
Music Dancing Singing Video

It is love that holds all things together

But remember all the good things
All good things come from the dead
All the extinct ones
All our million billion trillion brothers and sisters
Thank you

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Two dog dream

Two dog dream

I dream
I take two dogs for a walk
My dogs
Or seems more like I am theirs
We are together
They bring me their leash
I have to wait for them
And then we are out
To the park
And another dog is attacking
A child?
I wake up
I know the dogs saved the child
Because I have dreamed it over and over again
Until I get it right

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/