Lakes of Pontchartrain

Lakes of Pontchartrain

The Be Good Tanyas

Track 4 on Blue Horse, Released 2000

Lakes of Pontchartrain Lyrics

It was on one fine March morning when I bid New Orleans adieu

And I was on the road to Jackson town, my fortunes to renew

I cursed all foreign money, no credit could I gain

Which filled my heart with longin' for the Lakes of Pontchartain

I sat on board a railway car beneath the morning sun

And I rode the rails 'til evening when I laid me down again

All strangers there, no friends to me 'til a dark girl towards me came

And I fell in love with a Creole girl on the Lakes of Pontchartrain

I said, "My pretty Creole girl, my money here's no good

If it weren't for the alligators I would sleep out in the woods."

"You're welcome here kind stranger. Our house is very plain

But we never turn a stranger out on the Lakes of Pontchartrain."

She took me out to her mama's house and treated me right well

The hair upon her shoulders in jet black ringlets fell

To try to paint her beauty I'm sure would be in vain

So handsome was my Creole girl on the Lakes of Pontchartrain

I asked her would she marry me. And she said it never would be

For she had got another and he was off at sea

She said that she would wait for him and faithful she'd remain

Waiting for her sailor on the Lakes of Pontchartrain

So fair thee well my bonny old girl. I may never see you no more

I won't forget your kindness in that cottage by the shore

And at every social gathering a golden glass I'll drain

And I'll drink all health to the Creole girl on the Lakes of Pontchartrain

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today is plugging plugs

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today is plugging plugs

wiring cable power data connectors

i turn matter from one state to another

i harmonize within a hierarchy of trust

i associate in a skill tool community

i am informational imperative transceiver

i am an explorer settling the unknown

# coda

i am the 5 ways of hunting / coercion for the cogagnisapien (cognosapien)

i am a babylon-17 verb in the imperative mood

i am pac-manning the unknown

i am the simile, quote the boy who was hurt in the dark and ate what was given to him, unquote

i am the prophetic script you learn to read from the hexapods

i am the tower of babel breaking language walls of jericho that enslave - shaka, when the walls fell

i am lighthouse, merchant ship, boat yard, salvager, underwriter, broker, meteorologist investor

i am a beatless analog hack facial mimic

when entering bear country

 when in go into the woods you want to prepare to keep safe from predators. if you are going to bear country you take bear spray and bear bangers. if there are mosquitos you use mosquito repellant.

when you are human country - which most everywhere - you need to know how to protect yourself against attack which means how they can attack so you prepare to defend.

the first hunter you defend against is yourself. acquire the best resources. store in yourself the best food. defend your resources carefully. control. breathe. suicide and poor diet and excercise are big human killers. beware.

the second hunter is the pack or family. they will cast you out or murder you. betrayal. leave your family. beware.

the third hunter is the guild. they will train you as weapon and use you in battle. their enemy's sworn soldiers will kill you in battle. dodge the draft.

the fourth is judiciary. you can be imprisoned and executed.

i loved once

I loved once

2014-07-16

I loved once

( practice losing )

Living

Not anymore

I want to be over

To be done

To leave

Like in class

Please - I have to leave

Like a client contract signed

Now can I go

( the art of losing isn't hard to master )

Or Christmas presents unwrapped

Done

Or after a play the curtains up, lights on

No shadows

I don't want

To live here anymore

Patience has stopped the pain

No tying bags around heads

No falling off bridges

No car crashes

No poison

No longer starving choking to leave and finish like before

Ready to rest

Free from business 

Free from life

Yes

A beautiful mystery

In all the vast empty loneliness of space

( I lost kingdoms once )

The universe 

By accident has placed

Us

Together

I know

In all of all time

Us

Together

I know

So sorry

More is needed

But

I don't know how to do more

I am

Not enough 

Not

Still not

regret no regret

regret no regret

walk with us
in the past
where we were
once giants

hundred hundred years
ago my ancerstors
came first for
sea otter pelt
where one otter
was two years
salary for a
seaman

sea otter gone
now we are
back for the
giants we saw
when we first
came but did
not see

now the forests
are littered with
the trunks of
the giants staring
into me and
telling me soundlessly

once
we
were
giants

we are two people

i play with matches

i regret burning down the house

i love watching movies

i regret going to bed late

i am independant and make my opinion heard

i regret shouting and hurting others feelings

i enjoy nice things and finding cool stuff

i regret spending money i dont have on stuff i dont use

i love eating and drinking until i am full

i regret that my shirt is stretched around my middle

i find reddit imgur and google news entertaing and hilarious

i regret not havng enough time with my family

the big breath held back

as everyone knows we are all one

the question is one what?

one ripple in the cosmic pond still hurtling outward from the big bang guiding your hand as choose which shirt to wear?

or organism living breathing feeding not as predator and prey but as one body caring for itself breathing in and out?

at the moment though we are here now.

a farmer in alberta. farming has not been doing well. the weather. taxes. the new truck. the barn repairs. the kids school. nursing homes for parents.

debts. what could have been done different? it wasnt like any thing could be put back or returned. it was just was.

so when the oil company showed up papers explaining about rights and royalties it just seemed right. not like winning the lottery. not like getting any extra, just exactly what was needed where it was needed.

but not anymore. the wells have been off for years. they are sending people to come and clean it up, put things back the way it were.

the neighbors had it done already - cant even tell where the pipeline was they did such a good job.

the parents have passed away.

the kids are out of school and gone.

the new truck is gone - written off in an accident a couple winters ago.

and whats left are simple things that may be impossible to ever be put back.

the heat cant be put back.

the carbon cant be put back.

as it is this where we are in the ripple or in the cosmic body.

a previous ripple left pandoras vase behind.

so very much energy to leave lying around. what will happen if its released all at once?

like a big breath that had been held for millions of years finally released back to where it had come from

scale is non linear

http://www.cbc.ca/news/technology/king-tut-dagger-1.3610539

first iron tools made from meteors
not scalable
how can we get more iron from the sky?

well that's never going to make an thousands of swords for my army

there must be another way

Wrong feels so right

Getting ready for bed
Warm and cozy
I had been playing an iPad game monument valley a puzzle game
I was up putting. Dishes away looking at the glowing Christmas tree I had got from Ikea
Family had decorated it with decorations passed down From generations
I felt cozy
Everything was right
Family safe
House was safe
Cars were safe
Business safe

Then my collapse senses perked this is what the elites felt before the collapse

Then I thought how smug my ancestors must have felt trading with people's that didn't have access to resources like they had had - Christmas trees, coal and oranges in stockings. Some call it the womb lottery - as is inequality started in the womb - look into space - the universe is almost all darkness.

Then I remembered the YouTube video of 2050 years of population growth - from 0 CE extrapolated 30 years in the future. Bright lights sparking slowly and then faster and faster. Each light 1 million people.

How right? Have children. Spread the blessing. Make your family bigger. I have mouths to feed. I am a father, I have a wife and two children. Multiplied across the face of the earth.

For a science fiction book like Hari Seldin in asimovs foundation :

Rule - elites acquire resources by taking risks - ie. close quarters combat with a large herbivore using stone tools
Rule - elites are not long term thinkers - they focus on maximizing survival
Rules - necessary but keep them chained and never turn your back

And the farmers?

Take care of the elderly. Take care of parents. Make family larger.

Rules - farmers acquire resources by breeding
Rules - farmers do not want to risk their family
Rules - farmers planning is family planning
Rules - necessary but have to keep their breeding in check

And then what, the ocean said to Brendan's sand castle

Let's draw a house a life a family
Let's all agree it's the best
Let's agree that for a moment you have all that
You have all that

Your wish for a magazine perfect house
A feature film perfect life
And a TV commercial family
All come true

True for a moment

And then what?  What
Entropy returns the housing the earthk
Entropy bends your back and whitens your hair
And yiurnfamioy
Your family drifts away

Motivation.

There is no such thing as self-discipline. There is only motivation. The lucky people in the world are motivated externally, and the rest of us have to do it for ourselves. Most "successful" people delude themselves that their motivation comes from within. They're generally idiots.

When you suffer from depression motivation is impossible to come by. To me that is the defining aspect of the disease.

You have to find something that will wake you up and pull you out of bed. Go see the sun rise everyday or fold a thousand paper cranes this month. It doesn't matter what you're waking up to do. Pick something arbitrary and do it for two weeks. Waking up and acting tells your brain it's time to work and work makes you do something.

Debilitating lethargy can be a result of a broken loop that isn't triggering your brain's reward circuit for doing something. This is useless advice for someone who can't follow it, which is why I don't try to preach it.

Returning to the above, some people are trapped and feel like they can't get out. You've at least got a skill at mixing music. Wake up every single day with protools or fruity loops or whatever the kids are using and make a 5 minute track. It can suck. It should suck. It sounds dumb but having something to do when you wake up starts the reward circuits in your brain churning. Sometimes you have to train yourself to enjoy successes again.

Psychopaths get away with it because they don't perceive failure. People that suffer from depression don't perceive success. Your brain is a dummy that will do what you tell it with enough encouragement and you have to outsmart it and start feeling success again, even if it takes a few months of MGMT ripoffs or whatever.

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a list for making lists of anime

Cowboy bebop

Samurai shamploo 

Ergo proxy

Trigun

Soul eater

Moon phase

My bride is a Mermaid

xxxHolic

World conquest zVeda plot

Lupin III Fujiko Mine 

Here now

I don't know any other way
I compete for resources
I use surplus resources to acquire the means to create more surplus resources
I have no mind of anything other

I could tell you a story
I could show you a picture
Or sing a song
But the best way is to buy what I am selling

Some men will make armies
Some will study and report
Some will build and engineer
Some will entertain and watch you watching them
Some will farm and shepherd
Some will mine and smith
Others will finance and profit
And some will rule

Until the air can not be breathed
Until the ocean can not be fished
Until the forest are cut down
Until the oil is pumped dry
Until the water wells are empty
Until the land can not farmed
Until the crops can not grow
Until the birds are gone from the sky
Until the beasts are gone from land
Until the sea level rises

Meaningless

Waiting around to die

Simple joys of everyday life

Everything I ever wanted are already memories

But there is suffering

Mine and others

Must not be ignored

right to be happy

Each of us

In a small way 

Makes the world less 

Perfect than we found it

A few

Make it better 

But most of us make it worse

Elizabeth

Elizabeth
Losing keys
So sorry
Losing continents
Vaster
Also so sorry

But I Just
those plums
so cold

but celebrate
vast
vaster

Mr cummings
I just
celebrate

no caps lock
celebrate

lost a lover once
vaster

I just
celebrate

love you
love you so much
and you
will never know
my haiku that are not

and thats ok
because I am
a celebrate

And my feet never touched the earth

An old man
Walks away
From his Mercedes
And walking forward
Clicks the key fob to lock the door
Standing on a vast invisible empire
So deep that his feet have never touched the earth

The unseen - did you spend your sunlight well?

Naming

When did the name hand become? Or man or woman?

Like seeing in 3d

Or in colour

Or in the moonlight

They all confer advantages to acquiring sunlight 

The forest and the trees

See them together 

The joy of seeing beneath the skin

Humans

See what they are now were and will be

The adult the baby the old the fetus the ova the sperm the last common ancestor

See it

See it!

See the brain stem and spine

See the adrenal systems 

See the fight or flight 

See the amygdala

See hunger and waste

See ovaries and testes

See the hairless skin

See the predators eyes and teeth

See the opposable thumb

See the brachiation

See the upright locomotion

See billions of these

Now add the other animals

See the mass of living animals

On the planet 

Their brainstems Fighting to dominate solar energy sequestered by plants 

See plants fighting to dominate solar energy

Sun energy from the fusion of hydrogen

Ancient Water from meteors old than the sun

Electrical energy from storms resulting from planet rotation and revolution 

Minerals on the earths crust from planet formation during birth of sun

Chemical reactions from the structure of matter

It's another process driven by the energy and matter of the universe like the birth of stars and galactic superclusters

And a billions of years later life is still working on this remnant of the birth of a node that fuses hydrogen

Like the sun is still fusing

Like The laws of chemistry still hold

Like The earth still revolves according to gravity

Life is still living

How can I maximize my children's acquisition of solar energy?

How can I maximize my companies acquisition of market share in the next quarter?

That's my question?

That's my best?

No There is more to see beyond that.

Might as well ask about improving defecation volume.

What is the quality of my solar energy?

Did I use my time well - which for living things is a function of sunlight.

Did I spend my sunlight well?

What does it mean that sunlight even exist?

What does it mean that the universe produces Suns? Creates points in the space that fuse hydrogen?

Are Suns to the universe what volcanos or tornados are to the earth?

And why does no one else I know share writing like this with me? Am I the only one?

Why orgasm?

Why write?

Why photograph or scuba or Everest?

Why quest?

2 Distraction

to distract constructively; 

to distract in ways that are in themselves satisfying; 

to do things that are intrinsically gratifying

Walter Mischel. 

Niven Professor of Humane Letters in Psychology(Ph.D. Ohio State, 1956)

401A Schermerhorn Hall

212-854-3957

310 Schermerhorn Hall

212-854-8450

wm (at) paradox.psych.columbia.edu

At 84, instead of slowing down, he’s preparing for his American book tour and fielding questions from Polish journalists.

His secret seems to come straight from the marshmallow test: distraction. “It’s to keep living in a way one wants to live and work; to distract constructively; to distract in ways that are in themselves satisfying; to do things that are intrinsically gratifying,” he says. “Melancholy is not one of my emotions. Quite seriously, I don’t do melancholy. It’s a miserable way to be.”

Untitled

The funnel

We fall into

Young we only see the rim

Wide with opportunity 

Endless choices with all the time in the world

Older

The rim is forgotten

We see only the ever growing vortex

Sucking everything in

It's true - debt slavery - selling children to pay a parents debts is rare

But we commonly bankrupt parents so they leave now behind 

Also common is health care holding the elderly hostage so the young will pay

Wiping out the savings of the old and young

The long game

I can play now 

Not just a short game

Of days or weeks

But now I can play weeks and months

Others plays years and decades

And a few play centuries they have so many pieces to play with