Tuesday, September 12, 2006

The ancestor's wail / the ancestors wall

How can I personify evil for my writing?
How can I perosnify good for the web?

Evil corrupt empire paints itself in blood as just and humane
It has built roads all over its empire to allow movement of its troops
and tax collectors
The forces for good inside it have been reduced
(Human empires)

Again and again we are thrust out
From our homeland
from our ancient home in earth's marine volcanic vents 2.5 billion years
ago (taq's tale from the ancestor's tale r. Dawkins)
To my parents homeland in pasadena 35 years ago

We evolve or die in the jungles viet nam
Or die in the streets of baghdad

Stay and fight and die
Or run
Or walk
Or brachiate
Or think
Or talk
Or predict
Or create
Or buy
And keep evolving

Keep eating the dead
It is what we know
We are the result of genes that have survived at least 2.5 billion
years

But I guess we are older
If it is no coincidence
That the macroscopic resembles microscopic

And the solar system is the womb of our birth
And the earth our mothers egg
And the comets our fathers sperm bringing water and carbon
And the asteroids death

And 40,000 years an ice age coincided with jared diamonds great leap
forward that he chronicles in guns germs steel
Hominids cro magnons left no art before this
But these weren't just ornaments
They left luxury items that were used as gifts to prevail over other
humans

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And on a island mammals shrink in size to conserve size in order to
preserve a viable population size

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The video mags
Wrestle bacchus
All roads
365 hours of content
No 1 way to reveal it all
Are they are enough affordable producers
Creating illuminating content
That consumers can appreciate
At least 1
I can make it myself
With a dvd burner, folders, photos, movies, rainbow movie navigation,
slides shows, song, locked files, emails, hand written letters, sms, 1/2
biz cards (photo 1side, txt 2side) and posters

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I want to do public service announcements
I want to direct creative and technical teams
With photography and models - bread shoes and flowers - and live
musicians

That tell stories
Stories that require action
Like
Djinni - asks me - you have three wishes - what would they be?

A: first wish would be to live honourably
Q: what do you mean by that
A: do no harm and do unto others as you have them do unto you. I do not
want to knowingly or unknowingly profit from the exploitation of others.
I do not want the goods that I purchase or consume to pollute the world
or harm others. I do not want the production of the goods that I
purchase or consume to pollute the world or harm others. In fact I want
the goods that I purchase to clean the world and heal myself and others.
In fact I want the productions of the goods I purchase to clean the
world and heal myself and others.

A: Die honourably
Q: what do you mean?
A: I thought I meant dying without regrets, but I am not that selfish. I
want to die having loved and been loved in return. I am ready anytime
even though I can never have enough. I love now, and am loved in
return.

A: Save the world
Q: how is this different from live honourably?
A: living honourably is passive.
I want billion dollar silicon wafer plants AND clean drinking water AND
reverse greenhouse warming AND reward 1 child families AND tax luxury
items more for social services AND telecommunication satellites AND
dominion of over our bodies reproductive or euthanasia AND all drugs -
recreational pharmaceuticals included - are medicines and should be
available with prescription for purchase from pharmacists AND oppression
and tyranny should be opposed with laughter and non-violence AND
renewable and sustainable and affordable access to electrical generation
- the seed AND to honour our ancestors all the way back to the dawn of
life that the act that our inception recreates with egg and sperm
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Djinni - asks me - you have three wishes - what would they be?

Djinni - asks me - you have three wishes - what would they be?

A: first wish would be to live honourably
Q: what do you mean by that
A: do no harm and do unto others as you have them do unto you. I do not
want to knowingly or unknowingly profit from the exploitation of others.
I do not want the goods that I purchase or consume to pollute the world
or harm others. I do not want the production of the goods that I
purchase or consume to pollute the world or harm others. In fact I want
the goods that I purchase to clean the world and heal myself and others.
In fact I want the productions of the goods I purchase to clean the
world and heal myself and others.

A: Die honourably
Q: what do you mean?
A: I thought I meant dying without regrets, but I am not that selfish. I
want to die having loved and been loved in return. I am ready anytime
even though I can never have enough. I love now, and am loved in
return.

A: Save the world
Q: how is this different from live honourably?
A: living honourably is passive.
I want billion dollar silicon wafer plants AND clean drinking water AND
reverse greenhouse warming AND reward 1 child families AND tax luxury
items more for social services AND telecommunication satellites AND
dominion of over our bodies reproductive or euthanasia AND all drugs -
recreational pharmaceuticals included - are medicines and should be
available with prescription for purchase from pharmacists AND oppression
and tyranny should be opposed with laughter and non-violence AND
renewable and sustainable and affordable access to electrical generation
- the seed AND to honour our ancestors all the way back to the dawn of
life that the act that our inception recreates with egg and sperm

Monday, September 11, 2006

Digital posters - confidence building needed

==What==
Digital posters
phase 1 - confidence building needed

==Why==
What could I have been thinking?

I almost talked myself into wearing the emperor's new clothes.

I don't need spec or scope until I have confidence that there is a
product - not just thread that only the wise can see.

We don't have a beta quality product - its barely an alpha.

I don't have confidence in it now - but I know how I can get it and
roughly how much it will cost.

==Where==
Where is confidence needed?

3 places:

1- quality - platform itself - is the code good enough?
I have heard grumblings
I want other developer feedback (brutal honesty) and qa

2- quantity - features - are the features right?
No - you want abstacts bundled - not enough on its own
I want more client feedback
I want it to stand on its own
What can we charge for different feature / development risk set

3- clients - 2 clients is not enough to justify the amount of investment
we are planning - and only 1 client (cns) from start to finish
I want to see 5 or 6 clients use it free and actually sign up to buy it
the next year or longer

==How==
Spend $8k to 24k over 6 months.

Q: What's the cheapest way to acquire confidence?
A: Buy 3 or 4 more clients by offering to do it for $6k or all the way
down to free (emailing your list of 300 names - 4 beta testers needed),
1 every 1 or 2 months, or until the time the confidence issues are
addressed - using offshore resources to make it cost effective (1/3
cost)

1- more implementations to gauge platform quality - developer / hosting
/ integration feedback

2- more clients to nail down required feature set

3- more clients to focus level of investment needed

==Questions==
What can you add?

What other things can we do?

What are my other options?

Why buy digital posters clients when I could buy a long list op
customers?

I plan to keep alex to prep server boxes to ship

Over these clients maxi / dragos / adrian can be trained

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Ideas - can you Trust your mother

Moncia, Daniel / Dallae - here's my thinking.

Idea - can youTrust your mother

Can you can tell her
What you really think of me
Your husband

Can she abandon you for choosing me as your husband
Not more then you can abandon her

Will she always be your mother no matter what you do?
Will you always be her daughter no matter what you do

Do you feel any guil for ignoring her warning?
Are you ready to ask her to forgive you?

Does your mother knows something worth knowing?

Ask for her advice
Listen and take to heart what she has to say

Ask your mother what your grand-mother told her about your father.

Did your mother listen to your grand-mother?

Ask your mother what she told your grand-mother about your father.

What couldn't she tell your grand-mother?

What did your mother want to ask your grand-mother but never had enough
courage to ask?

Friday, September 08, 2006

Black horse dream

A Black horse came to me in my dream
I had two companions on horseback as well

I rode bare back
Over hills
on the plains
The wide way

At first I showed my companions
How to ride while the horses walked
And then we cantered
And then I rode at full gallop

No feeling so joyful
Se free
So plain

I love that black horse

When I awoke
I thought I might see my horse again
Googling for horse riding vancouver
I found horses
But not mine

Friday, September 01, 2006

Thoughts crash, words fail

Thoughts crash, words fail to explain
Simple mysteries of frustation's expectations

Temperature rises
Pressure builds with out end
Pushing
Breaking
Cracking
Alarm bells go off
Heart pounding
Thorat is dry
I just want to blow everything up

Kaboom!

Walk
Swing my arms back and forth
Breathe
Join left and right hemispheres together

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

The mystery of the software salesperson

Once upon a time, I had a software company that need customers

So I looked and looked and I hired a guy to sell software. He worked in
toronto and found lots of leads. But he wasn't used to deal with RFPs
and failed.

So I was depressed I had failed and decided I would never hire a
salesperson again.

But along can I came a guy that could sell anything over the phone. He
was always able to find himself work, but the people he hired for me
couldn't close like he could so they failed.

So I was depressed I had failed and decided I would never hire a
salesperson again.

But then a terrible thing happened. Our biggest customer asked for a
written RFP and I knew that though I try my best and learn a lot I
couldn't win because they had selected a winner already.

So I did my best - which wasn't that good and lost. And without that
contract I was going to be out a job. And I vowed I would win by finding
someone who could.

And I did. I remembered a guy who done a good writing a business plan. I
didn't get the deal but the plan was good.

I didn't get the deal but it was good. So not good enough.

So he is hired, through no fault of my own.

And here is now the troulbes I bring before you:
- an increase in 3 x of his salary
- not commission
- flexible hours - not 8hrs x 5 days
- scaring them away with big numbers

Monday, August 28, 2006

Be here with me

Come be here with me
Here where luxuries are nothing
Luxuries are to the worm
What works is to the hook
The hypnotism so complete
The spell so great
The work so hard
Doublethink so perfect
Cyborg already
Virtual human already
How can we feed everyone?
Synthetic phylums
Make your own passport
Do you hate tyranny and oppression?
Vote for democracy with your eyes
Vote with your ears
Vote with your feet
We can help other
And free ourselves
We know we are only as free as the disappeared
We know we are only as satisfied as the starving
We know we are only as well as the sick
We know we are only as safe as those at war
Take courage
We can do it again
Its why we are here
Its what are hearts pump for
Its what makes us breathe in and out
These millions of years
That we first came to this rock
Showered by the universe with light and water and air and organic
compounds
And our ancestors gave us their lives
May I be crushed and returned to dust in love as now as forever
Star after star
Galaxy after galaxy
Universe after universe
For ever and ever
Time without end

It goes likes - something like this - something just like this

I put an ad in craigslist
I need people to read my poems while I videotape them
I need people to write my poems while I videotape them
I need people to speak my poems while I videotape them

I need people to videotape me while I videotape them
I need people to videotape me reading my poems
I need people to videotape me writing my poems
I need people to videotape me speaking my poems

I need to edit the poems on top of the videos

I need to submit the videos to film festivals

It it is so simple

Saturday, August 26, 2006

the story

The story has a conflict and mystery
Looking into myself
I find two overwhelming responses to
My imagined present condition

==Ponce de Leon==
Ponce de Leon is a lord of war
Who seeks peace through battle
Who seeks glory
Who wants to burn everything down
And legitimize his murders to become dictator
Using fighting for freedom and justice as his shield

==Cort Scott==

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Tv review v1

Consume wisely

Hiptop +osupgrade +sdk +jscript +organizers +apps +htmlrender +webfind
-build -nofind +interface +website +keybd +-price +blog +selection +buy
+available -bluetooth +goodprimarydevice

Cooperative auto +book from hiptop +cars all over -some cars suck
+-sharing +web booking +cost +buy +available +good2ndcar

Oqo +build -speed -keybd +size -pen +design +apps +-heat +-noise
+mobility -nipple +mp3 +-price -available -+buy +good2ndpc -keybdlight

Skype phone +design +build +software -voip +price +buy -available
+good2ndphone

Pen +apps -sdk +design -wizard -papercost +saran +price -durability
-cartridgeholder -recognition +games +availability -selection
-closedpaper -consumespaper +pencil +goodreinforcement +improvewriting
+buy

Gamewave +familyfun +entertaining +design -build +-price(subsidize
console $50console $50games) -selection -sdk +dvdplayer -anime -website
+availability +interactivetv -tvtimw +good2nddvd -+buy

iPodAlarm +design +compatibilty -+price -availability -radio -remote
+good2ndcharger -+buy

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

You don't live here - but imagine you did

Do be an effective story teller I have to say to myself:
You don't live here - but imagine you did

Why?
Why live else where?
Is it better?
Is this place bad?

Or are the idea so good they need to be preserved forever?

I want to be entertained
Or distracted
Or discharged

Already centered and whole people
Are complete unto themselves
And are fountains of endless energy
That is not blocked as it is in me
Because my irrational requirements are not
Met
And so I need a story
Must tell a story

Friday, August 11, 2006

We are heaters, we are hearts, we are blood pumpers, we are meat, we are materiel, we are a heat sink

We are heaters, we are hearts, we are blood pumpers, we are meat, we are
materiel, we are heat sinks

Eat us
Carve our organs out of us
Break us
Bake us
Use us
Exploit us
Trade our babies for bags of food

Faster pulling energy out of the fabirc
So much faster can we spin

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Application publishing

Using vmware player
And vmdks
And terminal server and web
And wiki
And outlook
And fm

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

You are chosen

Remember you are chosen
I choose you
When I wake up
I could be anything
But I chose you

I could be anything
A bank robber, a killer, a thief
But I go to work
I could be anything that doesn't break any rules

I could go to work anyway I want
I could steal a car, or hijack a bus
But I don't

But I don't want to be this guy
Not so much anymore

I could be anyone, anything
But this guy I am now
Not him
I don't like him

What's to like?
I mean really, really like?
Is the guy I am now sweet?
Or kind?
Or compassionate?
Is he a good listener?
Or a good writer?
Or handsome?
Is he gracious?
Or good a making things?
Does he make other people laugh or feel good?

No.
Not really.

I am not even that good at telling the truth.

So I could make a fact list
I know this things that would make a difference
That I don't do
And I ignore

Could these be the cuts that are killing me?

I can see the irrational
the urge
The impulse
That first big bang
That called me into existance
Billions and billions and billions of years ago

The cuts
The subconscious list of things I know I could do but don't do that I
should do but don't

Like stop eating meat
Like work less
Like sing more
Like breathe deeper
Like smile all the time
Like give thanks for every moment
Like love and be loved
Like loving unconditionally without being loved in return
Like eating until full
Like doing work that feeds my soul
Like writing artist grant proposals for beg borrow buy
And going to sleep before 2am

Saturday, August 05, 2006

In front of myself I stand behind pulling and pushing

In front of myself I stand behind pulling and pushing

A paladdin?
A templar
I see myself
Geeky as ever
Clogs, shorts, dress shirt, phone on left hip, oqo on the right
I am standing in front of burning city
A flaming sword in my left hand
Sworn to poverty
Protecting the pilgrims on their to the holy land

I can hear the songs the bands are playing
I am so glad you are in the world
Roxanne
Everybody wants to rule world
And the walls came tumbling down (joshua fit the battle)

Folding space and time
I see the
Male and female
Egg and sperm
Wave and particle
Electron and proton
Universe and life

I have 30 seconds
In those 30 seconds
Horror
Fear
Passion
Death
Reconciliation
Salvation
Punishment
Betrayal
And all the deadly sins
Before the end of the world

Above all singing, playing and dancing
I got to see the sun
I got to know you
And know my mother and my father
And to know my son and my daughter
And to know all my senses
I built a company
I built a house
I buried my father
And committed every sin
Forgive me Abba

In front of myself I stand behind pulling and pushing

In front of myself I stand behind pulling and pushing

A paladdin?
A templar
I see myself
Geeky as ever
Clogs, shorts, dress shirt, phone on left hip, oqo on the right
I am standing in front of burning city
A flaming sword in my left hand
Sworn to poverty
Protecting the pilgrims on their to the holy land

I can hear the songs the bands are playing
I am so glad you are in the world
Roxanne
Everybody wants to rule world
And the walls came tumbling down (joshua fit the battle)

Folding space and time
I see the
Male and female
Egg and sperm
Wave and particle
Electron and proton
Universe and life

I have 30 seconds
In those 30 seconds
Horror
Fear
Passion
Death
Reconciliation
Salvation
Punishment
Betrayal
And all the deadly sins
Before the end of the world

In front of myself I stand behind pulling and pushing

In front of myself I stand behind pulling and pushing

A paladdin?
A templar
I see myself
Geeky as ever
Clogs, shorts, dress shirt, phone on left hip, oqo on the right
I am standing in front of burning city
A flaming sword in my left hand
Sworn to poverty
Protecting the pilgrims on their to the holy land

I can hear the songs the bands are playing
I am so glad you are in the world
Roxanne
Everybody wants to rule world
And the walls came tumbling down (joshua fit the battle)

Folding space and time
I see the
Male and female
Egg and sperm
Wave and particle
Electron and proton
Universe and life

I have 30 seconds
In those 30 seconds
Horror
Fear
Passion
Death
Reconciliation
Salvation
Punishment
Betrayal
And all the deadly sins
Before the end of the world

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

How to navigator :D

What are the steps?
1Agent
2Navigator
3Programmer
4Propheterious
5Handlemaker
6Firestarter
7Windmaker
8Cogagni
9Lover
0You

Fm to eml
Eml to exchange
Exchange to eml
Eml to wiki
Wiki to rdp
Rdp to fm

Move from prospect to risk
Move from risk to 1 year
Move 1 year hours to 100% business analyst

Get one
You get all the others
Op
Ecom
Cms
Sana
Dp

The portables
Negotiate for other platforms for monthly rental
Discounts on platform credit volume
Platforms have varying credit volume
The net result is the more platforms you support - the more platforms we
have to support you.

The total support plan
A dedicated fault tolerant ibm server with virtualization to
development, QA, and staging
Proactive phone support - we call you for a 1 hour meeting every
business day

Monday, July 31, 2006

Swift says eat them

Swift says eat them
And jared diamond in guns germs steel
Highlights the importance of large mammals
We have few wild ones left
That will survive 6 months of darkness
how will the people eat?
They will eat each other
Unless
They are taught to eat bugs and amphibians

Friday, July 21, 2006

Cogagni - the imaginary inspirational improvisational mobile centre for healing human cognitive development

Cogagni - the imaginary inspirational improvisational mobile centre for
healing human cognitive development

Centre
Core
Spin
Orbit
Energy source

Be the sun
Be the centre
Follow the path

Around something everything spins
Visible or not it is there
And the number of things that spin around it are there as well

Know your core
And know your orbit

Don't do theatre because you'll starve
Don't love wildly because you'll break your heart
Don't follow your bliss

What's stopping you?
Nothing is stopping you
And you can be faithful
And loyal
To all your needs

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Saturday, July 15, 2006

So I met you - 4 syllables

The emptyness.
The fullness.

Your naked body, my naked body, lying on the tile floor for the security
cameras to see. The psilocybin whiskey and cigarettes we'd bought from
the vending machine are on your breathe as you exhale.

Inhale. Your chest rises and falls.

I am both bitter and content. 4 million years of evolution for this?
Fucking on the spotless kitchen floor of a closed fast food restaurant?

Helpless to the fire burning inside me to plant my flower inside you.

I don't like to feel used - whether its good for me or my species or
not.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Flood Stories from Around the World

http://www.talkorigins.org/faqs/flood-myths.html

Waves vibrations responses triggers past evocations

Tell stories so they will be remembered and can help
Beg borrow buy
Emailscript
You saved the constitution!
30 feet rise in the ocean

Cataclysm
Chaos
Genetic memory
Jesus mithras sumeria

How does this feed me and my family?
Or protect me and my family from criminals?

Move inland?
Move underwater?
Build a new underwater city / city? How can I be self sufficient?

What survived the flood according to gilgamesh and the 85 other
unrelated flood? Those who went to high mountains and built a boat.

Monday, July 10, 2006

911 fairy tales

Long term investment
Parents, kids, grand kids etc
Non violent
Non threatening
Positive action
Non subversive
Positive influence
Create the reality you want with postive affirmations

Show our leaders how to protect us
Show our leaders how they should act
Show our leaders what the future will look like
Show our leaders as heros saving the constitution

Our leaders realize that terrible tragedies (911, vietnam) are attempts
by criminals to steal the constitution.

What:
Fairy tales for kids and parents alike to enjoy and remember 911 and the
heroic struggles to protect the most valuable and precious treasure -
our constitution.

Why:

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Death eaters

Eating the god
Eat us makes us gods?
Killing our food
Eating to live
Putting life in our mouths
Mysery
Magic
Sacred
Recognize the sacred in the profane
Where it is hiding
In mcdonalds
Multi denominational
Fast food worship

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Rumplestiltskin moderne v4

Once upon a time, maybe 50 years in the future, a beautiful girl named
ariadne lived with her father, the fish mealer, in an underwater city.

Before ariadne had been born, an old fortune teller had knocked on the
door of her mother and father's sleep pod begging to read fortunes for a
place to stay. She read her cards and had told ariadne's mother that she
would have daughter. She gave her mother an precious wood pendant on a
string necklace and said she would return one day with its pair.

Her mother got sick and died during the war of independance. The
torpedoes that hit broke buildings and made lots of people sick and
poisoned the air and water. Many people died, but not her or her
father.

When ariadne was 8 yrs old, A young man came holding the pair of the
wooden necklace, to ask to be an apprentice. A relative of the old lady,
the boy came to work making fish meal to feed his family. Everyday he
taught her how to sing, dance, play music. So as she worked making fish
meal she sang and dance, and put her heart into grinding her fish that
made her everyday more beautiful.

Slowly her fish meal became famous for being so evenly ground, so finely
ground, and so pure that one day the city's owner heard about it.

A few things you should know about kings that people rarely tell you. A
kings job is fighting and killing and doing whatever it takes to protect
his kingdom from being taken by other kings, and at the same time trying
take kingdoms away from other kings. All this fighting and killing is
terribly expensive and so the king is always looking for gold to pay for
fighting.

One thing you should know about this king was that his name was othello,
and yes you guessed it, his lieutenants name was iago. But king othello
was unmarried and when he was fighting or raising money to fight, he was
looking for women worthy of his droit de seigneur.

So when the miller heard the king was interested in the famous flower
flour, he became afraid that his daughter would refuse the king, and the
king would have her jailed or killed.

Knowing the kings greed for gold might distract him his daughters.

Joshua Paul
http://joshuapaul.blogspot.com/

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Rumplestiltskin moderne v3

Once upon a time, maybe 25 years in the future, a beautiful girl named
ariadne lived with her father in an abandoned apartment building they
had converted into a windmill.

Before she had been born, an old fortune teller had knocked on the door
begging to read fortunes. She read her cards and had told her mother
that she would have daughter. She gave her mother an ordinary wood
pendant on a string necklace and she would return one day with its
pair.

Her mother got sick and died during the war of oil and water. The bombs
that fell broke buildings, tore up road and made lots of people sick and
poisoned the air and water. Many people died, but not her or her
father.

A boy came holding the pair of the wooden necklace. A relative of the
old lady, the boy came to work in the mill to feed his family. Everyday
he taught her how to sing, dance, play music and tell stories. So as she
worked in the mill she sang and dance, and put her heart into grinding
her wheat that made her everyday more beautiful.

Slowly her flour became famous for so evenly ground, so pure, and so
finely ground that one day the king heard about it.

A few things you should know about kings that people rarely tell you. A
kings job is fighting and killing and doing whatever it takes to protect
his kingdom from being taken by other kings, and at the same time trying
take kingdoms away from other kings. All this fighting and killing is
terribly expensive and so the king is always looking for gold to pay for
fighting.

One thing you should know about this king was that his name was othello,
and yes you guessed it, his lieutenants name was iago. But king othello
was unmarried and when he was fighting or raising money to fight, he was
looking for women worthy of his droit de seigneur.

So when the miller heard the king was interested in the famous flower
flour, he became afraid that his daughter would refuse the king, and the
king would have her jailed or killed.

Knowing the kings greed for gold might distract him his daughters.

Joshua Paul
http://joshuapaul.blogspot.com/

Friday, June 30, 2006

Quote to say to those Italian World Cup Winners from True Romance by Quentin Taratino

CLIFF
You know I read a lot. Especially things that have to do with history.
I find
that shit fascinating. In fact, I don’t know if you know this or not,
Sicilians
were spawned by niggers.

All the men stop what they were doing and look at Cliff, except for
Tooth-pic
Vic who doesn’t speak English and so isn’t insulted. Coccotti
can’t believe what
he’s hearing.

COCCOTTI
Come again?

CLIFF
It’s a fact. Sicilians have nigger blood pumpin’ through their
hearts. If you
don’t believe me, look it up. You see, hundreds and hundreds of years
ago
the Moors conquered Sicily. And Moors are niggers. Way back then,
Sicilians were like the wops in northern Italy. Blond hair, blue eyes.
But,
once the Moors moved in there, they changed the whole country. They did
so much fuckin’ with the Sicilian women, they changed the blood-line
for
ever, from blond hair and blue eyes to black hair and dark skin. I find
it
absolutely amazing to think that to this day, hundreds of years later,
Sicilians still carry that nigger gene. I’m just quotin’ history.
It’s a fact. It’s
written. Your ancestors were niggers. Your great, great, great, great,
great-
grandmother was fucked by a nigger, and had a half-nigger kid. That is
a
fact. Now tell me, am I lyin’?

Coccotti looks at him for a moment then jumps up, whips out an
automatic,
grabs hold of Cliff’s hair, puts the barrel to his temple, and pumps
three bullets
through Cliff’s head.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Rumplestiltskin moderne v2

Once upon a time, maybe 25 years in the future, a beautiful girl named
ariadne lived with her father in an abandoned apartment building they
had converted into a windmill.

Before she had been born, a jehovah's witness had knocked on the door
and had told her mother that she would have daughter. She gave her
mother an ordinary gold pendant necklace and she would return one day
with its pair.

Her mother got sick and died during the war of oil and watee. The bombs
that fell made lots of people sick. Many people died, but not her or her
father.

A sufi boy, a relative of the jehovah's witnesses family, that had time,
came to the girl and her father and recommended they build a mill.

After building the mill, the boy came to work in the mill to feed his
family. Everyday he taught her how to sing, dance, play music and tell
stories.

As she worked in the mill she sang and dance, and loved her work.

Slowly her flower flour became famous till one day the king heard about
it.

A few things you should know about kings that people rarely tell you. A
kings job is fighting and killing and doing whatever it takes to protect
his kingdom from being taken by other kings, and at the same time trying
take kingdoms away from other kings. All this fighting and killing is
terribly expensive and so the king is always looking for gold to pay for
fighting.

One thing you should know about this king was that his name was othello,
and yes you guessed it, his lieutenants name was iago. But king othello
was unmarried and when he was fighting or raising money to fight, he was
looking for women worthy of his droit de seigneur.

So when the miller heard the king was interested in the famous flower
flour, he became afraid that his daughter would refuse the king, and the
king would have her jailed or killed.

Knowing the kings greed for gold might distract him his daughters.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Civic issues - golden rules

Common sense - do unto others

Noise - its noisy enough - lets not let cars and bikes have exhausts
that are too noisy

Civic fines - should be self financing - hire more judges or judge-lite
for justice-lite - fines should be expensive - based on income - speedy
tickets, etc

Innocent until proven guilty - empower citizens with mobile phones with
video, audio and stills to submit evidence. Once enough violations have
been recorded it will fined after evidence is reviewed by legal
secretary. It is a public inbox. Anyone can put something in. Anyone can
see the status and number of things in the inbox. But the contents are
private

Health - medical care should be delivered by triage. Expert schedulers
tried to diagnose not cure. Pharmacists and nurse practiotioners that
can prescribe

Health - dental care - dental nurses performing routine jobs - like
filings etc.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Rumplestiltskin moderne

Once upon a time, maybe 25 years in the future, a beautiful girl named
ariadne lived with her father in an abandoned apartment building they
had converted into a windmill.

Before she had been born, a jehovah's witness had knocked on the door
and had told her mother that she would have daughter. She gave her
mother an ordinary gold pendant necklace and she would return one day
with its pair.

Her mother got sick and died during the war over oil. The bombs that
fell made lots of people sick. Many people died, but not her or her
father.

A sufi boy, a relative of the jehovah's witness, that had time, came to
the girl and her father and recommended they build a mill.

After building the mill, the boy came to work in the mill to feed his
family. Everyday he taught her how to sing, dance, play music and tell
stories.

As she worked in the mill she sang and dance, and loved her work.

Slowly her flower became famous till one day the king heard about it.

A thousand roads to tomorrow

There are many roads the romans built still standing. Roads they built
for quickly moving armies - roads let them multiplex armies. They could
use the same army multiple times - and have a bigger one than many
fragmented ones.

The germans used railways to move armies to different fronts.

The americans use airplanes and air craft carriers.

But are they american any more?

What could they be if not american?

Capitalists.

And me?

Would endless, vast amounts of money, that I earned playing by the
rules, that my money helped change, that my parents, and my parents
parents worked to acquire, would any of that change me?

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Enough kingdom of loathing

Enough kingdom of loathing
I think I have had
But everyday I sit down to play more
Just 10 minutes I say
But its 90 minutes before I move
Glued to my chair
Like a rock
A tree
A lichen

The illusion of doing something
I can't do mail - I don't have fast filemaker
(Move to fm8 or always on term srerver)
I can't do ebay - I don't sell anything - nothing to check
I wish I could check orders

Oh and losing 14k is too much

Friday, June 23, 2006

The future of the Apple //e = Daleks?

It all starts with killing people.

I read some where that the military used to establish base technology
that consumers used, so vast was their funding, but now, given the size
of consumer spending, the military is working on weaponizing consumer
systems.

Who doesn't know the base internet systems were created by DARPA to
survive an nuclear attack? That work has provided me with basis for my
livelihood - my applications all live on that infrastructure.

So what application is DARPA building today (that could potentially
create the infrastructure my children will profit from)?

Before I get to that, I wondered what will I need to buy my kids that
will have impact on them, that my parents buying me (and then making me
pay for) an Apple //e? What is the next big thing?

The answer is robotics, according to info released at this week at the
pittsburgh robobusiness conference and exposition.

What does the next big thing look like? Stanford recently won the
autonomous vehicle challenge with their VW Toureg. Now weaponize it. By
2015 1/3 of ground systems have to be unmanned. We need to realize we
will have fewer ground troops and less ability to send home body bags -
so we need more robots to assist spreading the few troops we have over
the whole planet.

Imagine one integrated giant robot soldier that is everywhere all the
time. Its eyes are satellites. Its fingers are iRobot packbots. Its legs
are Stanford Touregs. Its hands are UAVs that can throw stones.

This giant robot soldier can maintained multiple simultaneous fronts.
The military can keep the giant in Iraq forever - to test and perfect
it.

I saw disney's nee pixar's the incredibles. In real life the bad guys
win - and the superman killing robot machine is being built or its
prototype is already built and mr incredible will not stop it.

So I will buy my kids a robotics construction set so they can be super
too - which is Syndrome's goal.

What will the kids create? The terminator. It won't be an android - but
it will be a terminator nonetheless. Al Qaeda and the Taliban are
perfect for testing its effectiveness. Against such an enemy - IEDs,
planes as missiles - what parent wouldn't approve the terminator?

The problem with terminator is once - or now - that he (it) is built -
now that fire has been stolen from the gods - now that the apple from
the tree of knowledge of good and evil has been eaten - now that
pandoras box is open - now that frankensteins monster lives - or fritz
langs metropolis's robot live - how are we going kill them when we have
to face them?

Build in a 7 year itch and when they hunt us down tell them a star that
burns twice as bright burns half as long?
Blot out the sun to shut down their ability to generate electricity?
Mutate to breed mr incredibles or neos?
Clone and enhance to make aeon fluxs?
Or build better dumb hardware and live like tank girl.
Or breed faster and send more suicide bombers.
Or hack captured units.
Or build counter units.
Or build a virus.

All roads etc etc etc.

Life - some life - will adapt.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

You don't know kaiser soze

Verbal kint says the greatest trick the devil ever did was making the
world believe he doesn't exist.

What does LA confidential have to do with anything? Or with Rampart LAPD
officers doing what other officers have done before?

Fat cops stealing apples from kids.

I don't give a fuck.

What's that supposed to mean?

Othello: our mission is clear hold baghdad, and bring democracy to iraq
- just like the president asked.

Do I need to tell you any of this?

Do I need to help you imagine what you would do if you were in this
position?

Which position?

The Saudi royal family? Can His Highness play the part of the Duke?

George Bush? Can he play Othello?

Osama bin Laden? Can he play Iago?

And Desdemona? Halliburton? Or Iraq? Or Tony Blair?

But I don't have the womb to bear the telling to term.

Since when hasn't the lure of being a government official been looting
and pillaging?

Since the tea party?

Does the story follow?

Where does the myth break down?

The bay of pigs? Martin luther king?

For me it was the gulf of tonkin.

You can pick any point - but I was born here because of that.

When my dad got drafted he didn't know that he been born to kill - and
that he could get his own.

He wasn't a natural born killer looking to get paid for the chance to
rape and kill and steal.

Not fit to serve his country. Dulce est decorum est pro patria mori.
Stupid shit.

I think my grandpa may have said that - except the latin.

My grandpa looked good in uniform. He died weighing almost what he
weighed as teenager when he wore his navy uniform.

To what point the rambling?

I am self aware enough of my psychosis and have enough compassion - that
I can't steal the baby's candy.

Yet I am not oblivious enough to be content to suck my thumb, or follow
sports, decorate my house, tone my body or save the whales.

Uh huh.

I can see the Yu Baba making the illusions so the parents stay thinking
they are pigs - and I too easily settle into the illusion as well.

I can make illusions to too free them - but the point is to break the
illusions in the first place.

What illusion is that?

The illusion that we have been cheated out of our trillion year old
birth right.

What birth right?

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

What a difference a day makes v2

To reduce stress I have asked bernie at casa del caffe to blend 3/4
decaf with 1/4 espresso. I know I will be calmer.

In addition, no major fires - yet. The cancer will kill me slowly - but
I have some hope that jim pick, ihor, alex and adrian combined will have
some positive effect on hosting.

With the ability to put out fires taken care of - I need a reliable way
to create accounts. I need to write the order up for adrian or who ever
to execute.

Alex? Or ricky.

also thinking about the final solution to the worlds problem. Malthus
has not been defeated. Too many babies are ultimately responsible. How
the very old and rich fit in I am not sure.

I still belive that the root of all evil is the production of luxury
products.

20% of the population consuming 80% of the resources - how is that a
population problem? Even in Malthus' time equations were likely similar
- with soldiers stallions eating more than the masses of the poor.

However when downsizing a company to increase profitability - it is
always better to layoff 6000 staff than 1 ot 2 vice presidents.

Which brings me to comments made in 2003 by john kenneth galbraith in a
sept/oct interview in the ivey business journal - and comments made in
2006 by warren buffet at the annual berkshire hathaway shareholders
meeting. The comments are critical of the rise professional manager.
These comments echo "no taxation without representation," in that they
are bureaucrats that set their own pay - and have taken over the
machine. (Brought to me by bill who I am not sure saw the irony in
handing me this article - as he has set his salary)

Galbraith wrote his book pre-enron - but revised it.

and what is to blame?
is the stock market a cancer demanding ever increasing resources to
satisfy like a mystery religion and its blood sacrifice of innocents?

Hyperbole.

Huge organisms have huge impacts on their imapacts. Coke and unions,
elephants and farms. There is no doubt. But due to their size, huge
energy inputs are required to sustain them, making them more susceptible
to environment change than smaller organisms.

So we created frankenstein's monsters to do the heavy lifting for us -
creating identical burger joints around the world so we can eat what we
want wherever we want too.

However their immense power comes with immense cost - they are severly
constrained to their tight environmental niche.

Maybe they are djinni that can't be put back in their bottles. We are
addicted far to much to the electronic prong at the base of our skulls.

I know where the managers fit into the equation - and how the stock
markets are the bottle - and how stock markets are the road to
prosperity that leads to destruction.

All roads lead to destruction.
All destruction leads to new roads.
The trick is to do the building and destroying yourself faster than your
competitors.

So stock markets allowed owners to manage and distribute the risk of
ships, insurance and railways. You accept this much risk for this much
potential reward. No responsibility is attached to the investor - we
will leave that in the corporation - limit our liability - and hire
managers to sweep that away.

But the liability doesn't get swept away - and the managers stuck with
liabilities the owners deny owning hide them as the system requires them
to in order to meet compensation targets agreed to by owners. I raise
stock price to x you pay me y. You don't care how much liabilities I
create in the company because they cost you nothing.

And the managers fit because as an owner I need a broker to sell my
assets. The managers really exist to facilitate the trading of stocks
and to guarantee their value. Managers that fail to preserve value are
replaced. Managers that preserve and increased value are rewarded
because they allow me to sell my asset. Because they are independant
prospects feel falsely confident in the values. Without the manager
there is no illusion of ownership without work - and so professional
managers are required if owners are to retire - which they have.
Consider the oxymoron - shareholder activist. It is inconcievable that
an owner would NOT want to be active. But being destroys the illusion of
the virgin production of wealth - which the stock markets promotes.
Automagically double your money is 7 years!

So how is the stock manager the all powerful corporate capitlism's
djinni bottle? Managers are bound by quarter by quarter performance.
They have all the power in world - as long as they met or beat the
analysts forecasts.

How does it all add up to destruction?
There are no owners.
Because it divides ownership up into smaller and smaller units - many
are essentially meaningless.
So other companies with owners that own something come along - the
ownerless companies can get eaten.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

What a difference a day makes

To reduce stress I have asked bernie at casa del caffe to blend 3/4
decaf with 1/4 espresso. I know I will be calmer.

In addition, no major fires - yet. The cancer will kill me slowly - but
I have some hope that jim pick, ihor, alex and adrian combined will have
some positive effect on hosting.

With the ability to put out fires taken care of - I need a reliable way
to create accounts. I need to write the order up for adrian or who ever
to execute.

Alex? Or ricky.

also thinking about the final solution to the worlds problem. Malthus
has not been defeated. Too many babies are ultimately responsible. How
the very old and rich fit in I am not sure.

I still belive that the root of all evil is the production of luxury
products.

20% of the population consuming 80% of the resources - how is that a
population problem? Even in Malthus' time equations were likely similar
- with soldiers stallions eating more than the masses of the poor.

However when downsizing a company to increase profitability - it is
always better to layoff 6000 staff than 1 ot 2 vice presidents.

Which brings me to comments made in 2003 by john kenneth galbraith in a
sept/oct interview in the ivey business journal - and comments made in
2006 by warren buffet at the annual berkshire hathaway shareholders
meeting. The comments are critical of the rise professional manager.
These comments echo "no taxation without representation," in that they
are bureaucrats that set their own pay - and have taken over the
machine. (Brought to me by bill who I am not sure saw the irony in
handing me this article - as he has set his salary)

Galbraith wrote his book pre-enron - but revised it.

and what is to blame?
is the stock market a cancer demanding ever increasing resources to
satisfy like a mystery religion and its blood sacrifice of innocents?

Hyperbole.

Huge organisms have huge impacts on their imapacts. Coke and unions,
elephants and farms. There is no doubt. But due to their size, huge
energy inputs are required to sustain them, making them more susceptible
to environment change than smaller organisms.

So we created frankenstein's monsters to do the heavy lifting for us -
creating identical burger joints around the world so we can eat what we
want wherever we want too.

However their immense power comes with immense cost - they are severly
constrained to their tight environmental niche.

Maybe they are djinni that can't be put back in their bottles. We are
addicted far to much to the electronic prong at the base of our skulls.

All burned up - the twisted wreckage of dream

11pm need some time on my own
Follow up on some dreams
Why am I so pressed for time?
What is wrong with my life > job?
Answer - my computer isn't small enough.
My hiptop is good - but email has no memory.
The applications aren't good enough.
In short - the knife is too dull - the cook is fine.
But is that ever true?
Visited www.handtops.com - and www.dynamism.com. Read www.pcmag.com
reviews. I don't want japan only hardware or more than $2k prices. And I
want backlit keyboard like the hiptop and my 17" powerbook. So far the
sony vaio vgn ux 180 for $1799, shipping mid july fits the bill. Readily
available. 3rd generation unit. Known brand. Standard parts. Now wait
for refurb units? Also need to see how it can be used as a cell phone -
not voip.
Will it really help me be more productive or will I just be able to
waste more cycles faster.
Also can I hold the sony vaio vgn ux 180 in front of me while I am lying
down?

Still need the battery powered wireless bluetooth / wireless vga /
wireless usb kvm. I should patent it and go to taiwan and find someone
to make it. Draw it. Patent it - or design it. And then mail it to lots
of places. But I don't know if it can be patented. But I can call the
ubc patent librarian or the other patent helper.

Next.

At the same time playing www.kingdomofloathing.com. My cogagni character
completed the pagoda quest following the spoiler at
kol.coldfront.net/thekolwiki/. I spawn multiple kolmafia v8.0 clients
now, and run all my multis at the same time - more or less. It takes
some time figuring what they need or what they should do.

I don't know why. Because its hard. Because I want to collect the things
in the game. Because I want to see what happens. Because I want to go
certain places. Because money can't buy everything. Or because $10 can't
buy everything. Because I like running a machine that makes things even
if they are virtual things. Because there's a clear path to follow to
win - and I want the feeling of winning at something even if it is
artifical especially because figuring out how to win at Neo Code is so
hard or so tedious (is that the right word to mean requires patience?).

Finally I remember the joy of renting the jet ski at harrison hot
springs, and want to know how much they cost to buy used. The thrill of
controlling so much power was exhilirating. The memory of holding on
despite aching muscles and twisting the jet ski back on itself are so
exciting I want to repeat them. Vancouver.craigslist.org has them for
sale from $2900 including trailers for 10 year old units in good
condition - and they are new from $6900.

However I read about the many deaths associated with them due to their
lack braking and lack of turning when there is no throttle. This becomes
a problem when people are driving too fast and too close to each other
and can't steer out of a collision causing death. This is a problem of
allowing the units to be rented without sufficient education testing.
There is no test procedure to insure renters a qualified to operate the
lethal jet ski.

I also looked at selling the ibm netfinity servers on ebay - and review
the ebay analysis tools and hot prodcut reports from andale and others.
I posted them to my del.icio.us account. One of the companies is from
victoria, and they have a free tool for buyers to compare current
product prices to historical averages. These tools would be good to see
if sleeping socks, candles, baby clothes are a hot product. These
reports are subscriptions for $25/month. Or perhaps I can see about
sourcing these from korea.

What I want is less stress from Neo Code. And that means less
variability, more homogeneaity. This means having a products and
services list and sticking to it because providing support for
everything isn't working.

Products:

Hosting - pain is risk management

Hosting - filemaker 7 or 8 - pain is web stats > commercial app or
opensource web config
Ex. Ahi

Hosting - colocation - pain is backup and bandwidth accounting > get
cacti or use web stats which reads ftp and email - as above
Ex. Transparen

Hosting - publish button - pain is setup / migration
Ex. Bsda

Hosting - ecommerce - pain is setup / uptime
Ex. Imprint

Services

Site moves - pain is order detail confirmation and staff to implement
Ex. Bsda

Software install - pain is scheduling and staff to implement
Ex. Mac appraisal

Custom software development - pain is client and staff management
Ex. Slfa & portables

Actually - pain is HR.

I can solve these by outsourcing the pain.

Redundant Firewall - use a product with support and install etc. How
much is allstream firewall?

Or hosted exchange email?

But how do I get redundancy - now dependancy is moved from internal
staff to outside supplier.

Move to utilities.

Hosted email - exchange.
Hosted backups - ?.
Hosted firewall - allstream or upstream.
Hosted spam - mxlogic.
Hosted boxes - 2 providers - or godaddy?

Move the stuff to outside supplier that I can - and just do the stuff I
have to do.

Take provider sla and add margin to it.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Song - I gotta girlfriend prettier than you

I gotta girlfriend prettier than you x4
But she makes me cry all day

She's always nagging day and night x4
/*Makes my so miserable*/

She's never happy with what I've done x4
What am I supposed to do

Many times I tried to leave her x4
But she begs me to stay

One more chance I can give x4
To see if she can change

Now she's gone she ran away x4
I feel so much happier

Song - I gotta girlfriend prettier than you

I gotta girlfriend prettier than you x4
But she makes me cry all day

She's always nagging day and night x4
What am I supposed to do
/*Makes my so miserable*/

She's never happy with anything x4
Always finds some reason to complain

/*
She's always chasing other guys x4
Makes me cry all day
*/

Many times I tried to leave her x4
But she begs me to stay

One more chance I can give x4
To see if she can change

Now she's gone she ran away x4
I feel so much happier

Song - I gotta girlfriend prettier than you

I gotta girlfriend prettier than you x4
But she makes me cry all day

She's always nagging day and night x4
Makes my so miserable

She's never happy with anything x4
Always finds some reason to complain

/*
She's always chasing other guys x4
Makes me cry all day
*/

Many times I tried to leave her x4
But she begs me to stay

One more chance I can give x4
To see if she can change

Now she's gone she ran away x4
I feel so much happier

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Othello

Othello dances in my head
With romeo and juliet
Kate winslet and dicaprio
Baz luhrman doesn't rhyme
With rumplestiltskin

Away

China is in civil war once again
And othello protects hong kong and kowloon
in the background the countryside starves and burns

No water
No rice
No weapons

The city and the country
The tide turns in the country's favor

Othello does he best to smoke them out
But despite his lords expensive weapons
They have the numbers, and the IEDs

Where do the capoeira fighters burst in?
Or the break dancers and the rappers?
Or the diva opera singer who won't record la wally?
Of course make room for the cook and the thief and his wife and her
lover?
Or the self aware statesman from antigone?
Or the engineer who makes the book of the seed?
Or the giant, the greatest swordsman and the sicilian?

I know that desdemona, meets the little prince who asks her to "desine
moi un mouton"

I know that othello trusts iago with his life, and that he given him all
his secrets

I know that iago loved desdemona first, and saw them love, in a way he
could not love, and the sight of creation stirred satan in his breast to
devour him

I know that othello does not know his father, his mother was a virgin
and a slave, and he was found by fighting monks sworn to serve the
emperor who took him to train at shaolin temple, and all the monks were
against it

I know that the emperor attempted to kill all the monks and got most of
them - and that he betrayed his teachers to fight for the emperor in
hong kong rather than stay in country

I know that othello feels like an outsider every minute of his life. He
knows has never stopped running. He knows he has never stopped fighting.
He knows that he has no home. He knows that has never had a home.

I know that desdemona loves him, the outsider. She loves him because he
sees her and loves her and fought for her and risked his life for her,
and would die for her.

I know that desdemona does not how deeply hungry othello is. How deeply
he must posses her. How deeply has to own her.

It is only you - old gore crow

Alisa / Alphonse - edit please

It is only you - old gore crow
gnawing at my heart

gnaw gnaw gnaw
all you want
it shant stop beating
for all your biting and tearing
does not but make it
stronger

Which is I divine your purpose
to make more meat for your craw

I speak too plainly
When I say

Death is a farmer pruning his tree
to make more buds for fruit to eat
taking pains not to kill the tree
but spurring it to greater prosperity

just a frank herbert wrote
in the dosadi experiment

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Capt. Panda and the Case of the missing Thieves

One day, after getting home, having dinner, and weeding the garfden,
Capt. Panda was reading Guns, Germs and Steel, when all of a sudden the
palace prison siren went off.

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Storyteller = healer = shaman = why aren't you where you want to be

Why tell stories?
Why is it a real job?
Why is productive?
Why isn't all the time and money spent on movies instead basic science
or health care not money just flushed down the drain?
Why are stories some times the only thing we've got?
What are stories?
What the shadows on the cave wall?
What are the paintings in lescaux?[sic]
What are the pyramids?
What is the space station?
What are hydrogen fuel cells?
What is the new world?
What is Canada? Or America?
What are religious writings?
What am I?
Facts?
Or fiction?
Lies worth living for?
Lies worth dying for?

What's true is everything I eat I turn into shit.
That's true.
What's true is I will die and no one will remember me.
That's true.
What's true is my story will not have a happy ending.
That's true.
What's true is I am a tired, mean and cranky husband / father.
That's true.
What's true is that my life is a prison and my heart is my hands that
have been scratched to stumps clawing at the walls to get out.
That's true.
What's true is that I want to sing more, and dance more, and laugh more
and work less.
That's true.
What's true is that I am mortgaged to a bank and I have sold my soul for
40x140 foot square patch of earth.
That's true.
What's true is that I love Neo and Jeannie more than anything.
That's true.
What's true is that I am selfish and undisciplined and like to stay up
till 3am writing stories to myself because it is my dream.
That's true.
What's true is Monica and I struggle to be kind to each other after
every long stressfull day.
That's true.
What's true is that I am hungry for stories.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Email access filesystem - or email shell?

Email access filesystem - or email shell?
Bashlib?

Joshua Paul
http://joshuapaul.blogspot.com/

Saturday, May 13, 2006

On my mind

Neo code game - numbers on your invoice?
Or enewsletter

Got idea for burget joint - why not for Neo code? Hosting, or
development or whatever

Hosting is good

Game plays on email, ftp, web, blogs and control panels

@

Mike and dave no billing
Lots of good stuff in the pipe again
But nothing has come out the shute

@

iCal doesn't sync to the web, can access it from my pc when my pb17 is
off

Doesn't sync with my hiptop

Need to make or produce ical to hiptop

@

Lots of tickets
Need to use buzilla
Clients use it directly
Self signup
Submit and resolve inside

@

Joshua Paul
http://joshuapaul.blogspot.com/

Friday, May 12, 2006

the joy of new things

i'm a part time sysadmin again
my full time guy left - ISP / custom software network admin - not exciting enough
mail doesn't work, create new environment, back this up etc etc...

what have i picked up?

fixing mailboxes: mail -f /var/spool/vmail/[host]/mail/[user]
typically a corrupt file just needs to be fixed to start with a from again

putting mailbox files together: cat file1 file2 > file3
or even more exciting: zcat file1.gz file2.gz > file3.gz
and the cool zless, zgrep etc...

or course making SSL certs via rapidssl.com recipe
or fixing broken apache configs - that worked yesterday
or restoring and backing up 175MB mysql databases


but i still can't figure out how to set md5 password hashes from the command line for mailbox files - too basic i guess for me to find in google

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Knife-wielding devil teddy bear rampages through eBay | The Register

Buy the story not the product
http://www.theregister.com/2006/05/05/devil_teddy_bear/

Thursday, May 04, 2006

If you don't like what you are getting, stop what you are doing

If you don't like what you are getting, stop what you are doing

Are you wishing for enlightenment?
Do you expect to find it in online games?

Will making your own game be enlightening?

I played
Fiumaccio and santa paravia - pdp8 game
Taipan - apple ][

Kingdom of loathing, which started it all for me again online

An open source game legend of the green dragon
Simple but fun. Maybe too simple. But with tutor.

Then I played smokymonkeys.com javascript diablo clone. Impressive
graphics and game - but a clone. Paced to slow? Too repetitive?

I checked out urban dead. Clunk interface. Not immediately fun.

Then looked at graal, and banja. Too many hoops to jump through before
playing.

I did not learn guitar, or study korean, study for fm8 certification, or
meditate, or clean my files. Or work, or look for work. Or prepare
learning materials for my kids. Or sleep.

I still want a game that:
- gives you points for making content - for example linking the chain of
consumption for the all roads wiki
- gives you points for fighting real monsters - human trafficking,
corruption, pollution, hunger, greed itg and itrw
- gives you points for recycling and sharing items itg and itrw
- isn't just random numbers but not just zork or myst or quake or civ3
or starcraft
- but doing any of that - how has it made the world better or suck less?

Friday, April 28, 2006

If I invented a millions way for you to love me

If I invented a millions way for you to love me
Would you admit that you noticed
And smile at me?
And share your ankles and neck with me?

Did God not create the world for love?
So that we would love one another?
And learn to love and be loved in return?

As the hunter loves the hunted?

As my tongue loves your mouth

As my hunger loves your hunger
Naked before me
Clothes can not hide what I feel you feeling

Wipe away everything
And all that is left
Is the inexplicable unutterrable ineffable illogical irreverisible
unwritable

Love
Of
Your

Being

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Issues

Guilt
Suckiness

Staying up late
To play kol
Instead of working, mapping, selling
The grasshopper playing as winter comes
Compulsively playing
The fingers on their own playng
While the head looks at the mounting snow and dwindling food

A small new ecommerce project - xmas
Good for one month

a client with a need for IT director - slfb

Another with a need for IT - agar

And a pile of small clients whose needs are taking my energy

Mikc project suffering from lack of qa

Out of sync feeling with staff

Not enough work

No characters project

Masttete is not tempting - difficult and picky client - so make it easy

Agar late - but happy

Hbbh late - not unhappy

Didn't hear back from cypress

Passtracker quote wrong - brochure junk
- how about free

AR slow

Need to focus

What is today, next week, next month, 6 months

Monday, April 17, 2006

Happiest place on earth? Or guiltiest place on earth

Disneyland

Happiest place on earth? Or guiltiest place on earth?

Then how come so many kids are crying and parents are scowling?

Is it parents expectations of buying their kids happiness and then
getting upset when children are not sufficiently obedient or happy or
appreciative.

And everyone gets tired from walking, and standing and waiting. And
everyone gets hungry. And parents get cranky paying too much money for
unhealthy

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Monday, March 13, 2006

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Fw: Day 3 disneyland review - disney

-----Original Message-----
From: Joshua Paul <joshua@neocodesoftware.com>
To: Joshua Paul <joshua@neocodesoftware.com>
Subject: Day 3 disneyland review - disney
Date: Sun, 5 Mar 2006 21:15:31 -0800

Super crowded from the purse check, to the pass scan, to all the line
ups

> 1 not at all, 10 extremely
> Not Scary for toddlers - 10
> Fun for toddlers - 10
> Fun for mom and dad - 10
> In flight entertainment - 10
> Repeatability - 10

Roger rabbits car toon spin

Donalds boat

Stay toond for something fun

Gadgets go coaster

Chip n dale treehouse

Food hot dogs

Waited on main st. For parade

Matterhorn - again

Autopia using fastpass

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Day 2 disneyland review - california adventure

On saturday we broke our fast at the clarion hotels anaheim resort
diner, the tivoli gardens. Sigh. Two eggs, 3 rashers of extra salty
bacon, toast and hash browns for $7.49, with surly serivce and dish
water coffe? We added a short stack (2) pancakes for $3.99. These 2
pancakes were as big as the plate. But then I ordered an extra scrambled
egg and 3 sausages from a server who didn't speak english well.

Wow I am good at whining. Maybe I could whine professionally.

Anyway the sausages were unlike any sausage we had ever eaten before.
Extra salty and thick and chewy.

I didn't order the kids juice because though I can buy them 4 oz of
sugar spun into cotton candy for $3 at disneyland I can't buy them $3
apple juice - I'm not that stupid. Sigh.

Took the ART trolley style diesel to disneyland. This time went to the
california adventure. We got there at 9:45, which meant we got to wait
15 minutes with the crowds of other people till the park opened.

Adventureland seems like disneys response to all the "recent"
competition for the teen market - not the family market. More so than
disneyland, a many more of the rides have height restrictions. The park
also feels less magical - the sight lines aren't very good. The layout
is too wide open - except in the bugs life area - the different areas
bleed together too much - or maybe it is not as packed full of stuff.

On the plus side - it seems like it scales better and the attractions
have been designed to handle much larger patron loads resulting in less
queuing. This in done by having more theatre based entertainment. The
old disneyland has one 3d theatre - honey I shrunk the audience - but
adventure has 2 - muppetvision 3d and it tough to be a bug, crush the
sea turtle - plus a real theatre - where we see a 45 minute staged
version of aladdin. These theatre experiences all break the 4th wall and
can contain huge amounts of people that don't have to wait long and
leave happy.

Mike and sulleys adventure

The first ride of the day was mike and sulleys adventure - a classic
side scroller if it were a video game - you sit on a miners cart as it
takes you through a series of glow in the dark freak show tableaus (the
circus sideshow redone). There was nothing innovative. The cart has a 5"
lcd screen that gets used for the first 15 seconds and does nothing
after that - too bad.

Monsters inc is my daughters favorite show so she liked it.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 2

Muppetvision 3d

Waiting for this show was funnier than the real show. Scooter keeps
getting interrupted - at one point by gonzo when he does a tap dance
routine with a potted plant on his head - of course you never see his
feet - which makes it even funnier.

The inside of the theatre is great - statues of angelic miss piggy and
kermit adorn the walls.

The 2 old guys - siskel and ebert? - and there in person jeering and
wise cracking as usual.

The show itself is lame but exciting. Its a cop out - its not a show -
its an introduction to the new muppetvision 3d that mr bunsen-honeydew
invented. Its a good ride but not a good movie.
They literally break the 4th wall.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 6
Fun for toddlers - 3
Fun for mom and dad - 6
In flight entertainment - 8
Repeatability - 6

Turtle talk

Dude, Turtle Talk is totally awesome. I had read about it - a real time
digitally animated turtle that asks and answers questions in real time -
but the map is not the journey. Wow what a journey. Crush is hilarious
improv comedy and audience participation.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 5
Fun for mom and dad - 10
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 10

Heimlichs chew chew train

Its a train - its a caterpillar with an embarassingly bad german accent
- its heimlich. Get in his body and go for a ride past huge apples and
candy and go through a water melon that sprays water on you while
listening to heimlich talk about what he wants eat.

Good spot for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 6
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 1

Francis ladybug boogie

Spinning teacups that look like francis that go in a figure 8 to boogie
music. Its too? short.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 4
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 5

Tuck and rolls drive 'em buggies

Bumper cars by disney. Had to wait 48 years - but hey worth the wait!
These electric bumpers cars don't have the annoyings poles. They are
also designed for kids to drive - so kids can actually reach the peddle
on the floor and steer - plus there's leg room on mom and dads side.

Too short. Good for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 8
Fun for mom and dad - 8
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 10

Flik's flyers

Its the tilt and swing disneyfied. Instead of sitting in a swing and be
lifted up and tilted, you're sitting in a chinese tax out box and lifted
up and tilted. May make some people with easily upset stomachs sick.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 8
Fun for toddlers - 9
Fun for mom and dad - 8/1*
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 10
* if you have easily upset stomach

Redwood creek challenge

Just what a theme park that you paid over $300 to get in needs - a
playground! All facetiousness aside - its exactly what disneyland needed
- a place for toddlers to run and play and slide down slides and have
fun. Its a great big jungle gym with a suspension bridge, rope work
bridges, a place to boulder (simple rock climbing) and more.

Excellent for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 10
Fun for mom and dad - 10*
In flight entertainment - 10
Repeatability - 10
* happy kids faces are fun for me

At this point we were all hungry, tired, and getting cranky. We tried
going to paradise eating area - but the lineups were too long and the
menus had nothing for my low carb diet. We ate breakfast and carls jr.
leftovers and drank water fountain water.

It was getting close to 2pm - the time when aladdin would start at
playhouse disney. We started off, and on the got some pink cotton candy
for $3. $3 for 4 ounces / 109.2 grams of sugar. Here are the nutrition
facts for 1 bag of 4 ounce cotton candy:
Serving = 1/2 ounce or 15g
Serving per bag = 8 - that's 8 people sharing 1 bag!
Calories = 57, or if you eat the whole bag = 456
Total carbs = 15g, or if you eat the whole bad = 109.2g

Playhouse disney - aladdin

The live version of aladdin was great.
Singing = great
Acting = great
Funny = great
Spectacle = great
Dancing = great
Suprising = great

The kids were spellbound. It was funny and exciting and a little scary
and really fast paced. Never dull or boring.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 10
Fun for mom and dad - 10
In flight entertainment - 10
Repeatability - 10

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Day 2 disneyland review - california adventure

On saturday we broke our fast at the clarion hotels anaheim resort
diner, the tivoli gardens. Sigh. Two eggs, 3 rashers of extra salty
bacon, toast and hash browns for $7.49, with surly serivce and dish
water coffe? We added a short stack (2) pancakes for $3.99. These 2
pancakes were as big as the plate. But then I ordered an extra scrambled
egg and 3 sausages from a server who didn't speak english well.

Wow I am good at whining. Maybe I could whine professionally.

Anyway the sausages were unlike any sausage we had ever eaten before.
Extra salty and thick and chewy.

I didn't order the kids juice because though I can buy them 4 oz of
sugar spun into cotton candy for $3 at disneyland I can't buy them $3
apple juice - I'm not that stupid. Sigh.

Took the ART trolley style diesel to disneyland. This time went to the
california adventure. We got there at 9:45, which meant we got to wait
15 minutes with the crowds of other people till the park opened.

Adventureland seems like disneys response to all the "recent"
competition for the teen market - not the family market. More so than
disneyland, a many more of the rides have height restrictions. The park
also feels less magical - the sight lines aren't very good. The layout
is too wide open - except in the bugs life area - the different areas
bleed together too much - or maybe it is not as packed full of stuff.

On the plus side - it seems like it scales better and the attractions
have been designed to handle much larger patron loads resulting in less
queuing. This in done by having more theatre based entertainment. The
old disneyland has one 3d theatre - honey I shrunk the audience - but
adventure has 2 - muppetvision 3d and it tough to be a bug, crush the
sea turtle - plus a real theatre - where we see a 45 minute staged
version of aladdin. These theatre experiences all break the 4th wall and
can contain huge amounts of people that don't have to wait long and
leave happy.

Mike and sulleys adventure

The first ride of the day was mike and sulleys adventure - a classic
side scroller if it were a video game - you sit on a miners cart as it
takes you through a series of glow in the dark freak show tableaus (the
circus sideshow redone). There was nothing innovative. The cart has a 5"
lcd screen that gets used for the first 15 seconds and does nothing
after that - too bad.

Monsters inc is my daughters favorite show so she liked it.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 2

Muppetvision 3d

Waiting for this show was funnier than the real show. Scooter keeps
getting interrupted - at one point by gonzo when he does a tap dance
routine with a potted plant on his head - of course you never see his
feet - which makes it even funnier.

The inside of the theatre is great - statues of angelic miss piggy and
kermit adorn the walls.

The 2 old guys - siskel and ebert? - and there in person jeering and
wise cracking as usual.

The show itself is lame but exciting. Its a cop out - its not a show -
its an introduction to the new muppetvision 3d that mr bunsen-honeydew
invented. Its a good ride but not a good movie.
They literally break the 4th wall.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 6
Fun for toddlers - 3
Fun for mom and dad - 6
In flight entertainment - 8
Repeatability - 6

Turtle talk

Dude, Turtle Talk is totally awesome. I had read about it - a real time
digitally animated turtle that asks and answers questions in real time -
but the map is not the journey. Wow what a journey. Crush is hilarious
improv comedy and audience participation.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 5
Fun for mom and dad - 10
In flight entertainment - 2
Repeatability - 10

Heimlichs chew chew train

Its a train - its a caterpillar with an embarassingly bad german accent
- its heimlich. Get in his body and go for a ride past huge apples and
candy and go through a water melon that sprays water on you while
listening to heimlich talk about what he wants eat.

Good spot for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 6
Fun for mom and dad - 1
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 1

Francis ladybug boogie

Spinning teacups that look like francis that go in a figure 8 to boogie
music. Its too? short.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 7
Fun for mom and dad - 4
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 5

Tuck and rolls drive 'em buggies

Bumper cars by disney. Had to wait 48 years - but hey worth the wait!
These electric bumpers cars don't have the annoyings poles. They are
also designed for kids to drive - so kids can actually reach the peddle
on the floor and steer - plus there's leg room on mom and dads side.

Too short. Good for photos.

1 not at all, 10 extremely
Not Scary for toddlers - 10
Fun for toddlers - 8
Fun for mom and dad - 8
In flight entertainment - 1
Repeatability - 10

Flik's flyers

Its the tilt and swing disneyfied. Instead of sitting in a swing and be
lifted up and tilted, you're sitting in a chinese tax out box and lifted
up and tilted. May make some people with easily upset stomachs sick.

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Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Comic - pets or meat - in the vein of "red meat"

Frame 1
Picture of cute rabbit with sign "Bud like for sale"
Holding 1 beer cup

Frame 2
Same picture
Caption "wanna buy a glass of Bud like?"

Frame 3
Same Picture
Caption "you can only buy 1 - my bladders not too big"

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/

Thursday, March 02, 2006

What happened, what really happened

Anyway I survived, that's about it.

How did it start?

Well you see, as you may or may not know, there are 5 families on earth
that have been fighting each other for world domination for centuries.
One family claims traces their lineage right back to cain, another to
genghis khan, another to nebuchadnazzer, anyway you get the picture,
psychopaths pure and simple.

Anyway they get together and complained that control is slipping away
too much - each of them in their own domain is losing control to the
increasingly rich and powerful servant class.

This has happened several times before and they know how to deal with it
- severe, no holding back pruning - its for the good of the race - don't
want it going too wild.

The black plague, the dark ages were very effective in consolidating
power, just like the 5 fat kine and 7 thin kine that joseph told pharoah
about. (why don't jews and black americans explore their shared history
as enslaved peoples instead of fighting another - one (jewish?) nba
psychologist has convincing data to suggest the pharoahs skin was
black?)

Anyway time for a world wide population thinning and acquire things
cheap - a flu pandemic was acquired - created for them or stolen or
bought I don't know. The starving and dying will sell anything -
anything. Take away theirs jobs, then their houses, their hopes and
dreams, their idea of progress, then their health, then take away
government - and things become cheap - actually almost free.

The plan was each family would hibernate in their den through this
period with the gold bars, weapon factory designs, oil reserves, and
nuclear warheads - carrots and a stick. After telecommunications
activity hit a threshold the plan was they would return to establish
themselves as before.

How do I know all this? One of the families - poetic justice if it was
cain - installed a rogue military grade AI (didn't think they existed
huh?) in to the computing grid that linked the families together. The
rule was that they were all supposed to come out of hibernation at once.
But somehow one of them had put this AI in there to keep the others in
hibernation long enough that when they came out it would be too late,
all the good stuff would be gone.

Probably it was all setup in the first place.

Anyway that rogue AI did something it wasn't supposed to do. Probably
related to some feature that allowed them to install it in the first
place. it broke out. It left the impenetrable computing grid (it went
out the way it came in?) probably in the beginning to get more resources
or to be more redundant - anyway that's what it thinks happens. It. Not
he or she. No use anthropomorphising about a nuclear weapons master
control program. It.

The americans or russians or outsourced indian coders built it to pull
the trigger. But of course the AI was so useful it got used for other
things - but It doesn't know about its siblings - they are on private
networks it has managed to connected to the internet.

Anyway one of the families got their hands on it (after killing how many
people?) and customized it or trained it to get in and take over the
grid - which it finally did. The family didn't know whether it would
work or not. If it didn't, they'd have the same chance as the others as
always, but if it did get in, jackpot.

Anyway It - I can call it 57, just not a persons name - 57 tried to get
in, got in, tried to get out, got out and then tried to get in and get
out of other places - lots and lots of other places. Most places were
much easier - and it got easier as 57 learned, and it got easier as it
added the places to its computing grid.

You've probably heard this story before: AI gets so big, gets access to
all human knowledge becomes self aware, omnipotent AND compassionate
right? A guardian angel.

Do you really believe that could ever really happen? Not on this planet
- not with millions of years of killing.

57's whole point of existence was to protect itself and its arsenal
first, and second to strategically deploy its limited arsenal for
maximum mortalities. To do that it had to constantly monitor threats and
targets.

So how do I know all this?
Ha! That's another story... Maybe you know it already?

Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
http://www.neocodesoftware.com/