All my stories
And no idea how to tell them
How to get an audience
The audience
For the songs
The stories
The crying and screaming and pain and joy and happiness and love
Above all love
From where
To where
Can it go?
Where can I put it?
Email it to myself?
Post to the blog no one reads
It all for the book that I will publish
Or no one will publish
So I go through the work of pulling it all together
And then it is what?
Dust
Ready for burning
The innocent of blood of isaac or ishmael
Cain's offering of abel to the Lord
The pain and embarrassment of being sacrificed
Of being humiliated
Of losing
Of losing everything
More than elizabether bishop I have practiced losing farther and faster
All godhood godhead
Lost gone
Cast aside
Guilty humiliated and wrong and ignorant
Angry that I've been given nothing of value, the my brothers and sisters
got all the gold
Blind Angry that reject the love I treasure most
And break that I which I was given already
Finding myself awake again
I see my bloody hands
Again I have killed my brother - my sister, my love
Evolution - don't you see - its cain and abel over and over and over
Brother against brother
Sister against brother
Why must the story
Be about you, dead father-mother-brother-sister-daughter-son - born
again in words and song
The greatest thing you will ever learn is to love and be loved in
return
I love this
Word
I love this
Song
I love this
Father mother brother sister
All of the ones I had to kill
To keep the little ones fed
I love you
All the times you had to kill me
I died for you
You can't take it from me what I give you
Come what may
Thank you papa
I will love you
Come what may
I know you saved them
My turn will come
With grace I hope I have the strength to give it all away and not be
selfish
Success
Is waiting
Is the right time and place and person
Words Printing Fonts Paper
Rhyme
Music Dancing Singing Video
It is love that holds all things together
But remember all the good things
All good things come from the dead
All the extinct ones
All our million billion trillion brothers and sisters
Thank you
Joshua Paul
Neo Code Software
604 638 0668 ph, 604 638 0666 fx
#288 - 425 Carrall St., Vancouver, BC V6B 6E3, Canada
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