just some negative thoughts

just some negative thoughts

1. i shouldn't surf http://glozer.net/trendy/ until kids are asleep
2. i shouldn't shout at the kids from the sofa while surfing
3. shouting at them to stop fighting is dumb, painful and depressing and hurts their feelings
4. flying from vancouver to seattle in a q400 dash 8 is depressing. the seats are small. there's no sink to wash your hands. your carry on luggage stays outside. (Danish aircraft (Dash-Q400) crashes during landing - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tu89SIBDizQ, and http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/De_Havilland_Canada_Dash_8)
5. carson city, nevada has been surviving for a while. it is depressing. less depressing than the lower east side of vancouver where i work, but whats similar is the feel of legislated poverty
6. the reason i went is to confront my doubts and fears about making a deposit on a heat to electricity machine.
7. the heat to electricity machine exists in a corrugated metal machine shop off the highway with detritus scattered around.
8. inside there are cars, machines, engines, and strangely a PET bottle sorter. we get our picture taken with the 1993 top fuel drag racing car
9. like north korean demonstration villagers, staff have been brought in to fire up a machine so we can see it run and prove that it is alive
10. there are 2 new machines in various states of readiness waiting to go to customers, and one old machine called frankenstein.
11. frankenstein is like an old zoo animal, or a tired, tawdry alien, that is being tortured. compared to the two customer units, frankenstein sprouts analog gauges and a profusion of extra little pipes like a disease.
12. i feel oddly guilty torturing this old machine to prove that it is really able to eat heat and shit electricity
13. the 4 stage natural gas boiler outside is woken up, and we gather around to listen to the pings and clanks as each stage fires up accelerating the water temperature increases
14. the warning siren sounds once, and the machine shakes itself and hisses to life, growling louder and louder as the electricity climbs to 31.4kwh
15. and that's all. there is no climax. no show. the machine runs. the villagers are bored having had to do go through these machines before. i am showed the analog gauges proving its able to extract power. i am showed the computer that confirms what the analog gauges showed. there is a much awe and excitement as an usher showing people to their seats in an 2nd run movie theatre
16. next stop is the factory where two units are being built. 5 more are laid out. but as i here the workers discuss, the vital components are coming arriving soon.
17. each unit is different from the next unit as the are very much a work in progress - improving as more and more units are made
18. next to the main production facility an empty warehouse is being prepared to make the large units. maybe none have been made yet.
19. a bunch of generators for 50kw units wait on pallets in a corner. in another corner the large heat exchangers for the 500kw units wait.
20. i keep repeating to myself that something good could happen.
21. i have called 3 or 4 companies. so far not a good fit. i know i haven't called enough places to give up but i was looking for a good sign.
22. however i will figure out how to extract heat from the oil sands water or the nuclear reactor water.
23. or i will find companies that have the heat and sell them power

if war was a game how would kids play hamas and the israel defense force?

if war was a game how would kids play hamas and the israel defense force?

take 900 kids and call them palestinians and tell them to play dead.

take 13 kids and call them israelis and tell them to play dead.

game over.

wasn't that fun for everyone?

hi

hi.

i watched a south korean brothers at war movie about the korean war - online - http://www.watch-movies.net/movies/tae_guk_gi_the_brotherhood_of_war/.

to say that it glorifies war is enough.

brothers are killing each other, each others wives, and each others children.

as they did then, so do they do now.

what i have written, so incomplete, so shallow, so missing the point.

insane.

a monkey / ape gone off it's head - something like that from Ronald Wright's 2004 Massey Lectures.

note:

- did our ancestors die on the battlefields so we could let merchants ruin our planet?

- we fought for freedom so we could be enslaved by fascists dressed up as capitalists?

- captilalism must be rescued from the monarchies of oil and military that hold it hostage

ps - what started so well - http://www.archives.gov/exhibits/charters/bill_of_rights_transcript.html - how did it go so wrong?

pps - why is relegated to the archives and not writ large?