Wednesday, September 28, 2016

we are two people

i play with matches
i regret burning down the house

i love watching movies
i regret going to bed late

i am independant and make my opinion heard
i regret shouting and hurting others feelings

i enjoy nice things and finding cool stuff
i regret spending money i dont have on stuff i dont use

i love eating and drinking until i am full
i regret that my shirt is stretched around my middle

i find reddit imgur and google news entertaing and hilarious
i regret not havng enough time with my family

the big breath held back

as everyone knows we are all one
the question is one what?
one ripple in the cosmic pond still hurtling outward from the big bang guiding your hand as choose which shirt to wear?
or organism living breathing feeding not as predator and prey but as one body caring for itself breathing in and out?

at the moment though we are here now.
a farmer in alberta. farming has not been doing well. the weather. taxes. the new truck. the barn repairs. the kids school. nursing homes for parents.
debts. what could have been done different? it wasnt like any thing could be put back or returned. it was just was.
so when the oil company showed up papers explaining about rights and royalties it just seemed right. not like winning the lottery. not like getting any extra, just exactly what was needed where it was needed.
but not anymore. the wells have been off for years. they are sending people to come and clean it up, put things back the way it were.
the neighbors had it done already - cant even tell where the pipeline was they did such a good job.

the parents have passed away.
the kids are out of school and gone.
the new truck is gone - written off in an accident a couple winters ago.

and whats left are simple things that may be impossible to ever be put back.
the heat cant be put back.
the carbon cant be put back.

as it is this where we are in the ripple or in the cosmic body.

a previous ripple left pandoras vase behind.

so very much energy to leave lying around. what will happen if its released all at once?

like a big breath that had been held for millions of years finally released back to where it had come from

Wednesday, June 01, 2016

scale is non linear

http://www.cbc.ca/news/technology/king-tut-dagger-1.3610539

first iron tools made from meteors
not scalable
how can we get more iron from the sky?

well that's never going to make an thousands of swords for my army

there must be another way